3rd december 07
well went for an ultrasound today cos I have had a pain in my side and it turns out that I have gallstones and a cyst!!MM, great fun!! Soooo I have been googling gallstones !amazed and looking at the link between them and VLCD's. There is a link but also a likelihood that they stay silent and go on their own soooo am sticking with LL for the rest of my 100 days and have an appt to chat with my GP next week to get his OK to go onto management..its a bit of a double edged sword, have lost weight therefore less chance of cancer, diabetes, stroke etc but higher risk of other things!!Other than that work is busy and the house is back to being our own again!! Just the way I like it!!
Monday, 3 December 2007
Wednesday, 28 November 2007
day 82
28th november 2007
weigh in tonight and have lost another 3 pounds so that is fab!! 3 stone 13pounds to date and it is the end of foundation next week so I just have to lose that one pound!!! There were only 3 of us at the group tonight, somebody else has dropped out which seems such a shame at this point, and we were all a bit shocked as we have become very close as a group, and somebody else was on holiday. The three of us there tonight are all going into the same developers group and all have about the same left to lose so that will be cool! Will be strange moving to a Sunday as I have enjoyed my Wed night jaunt to Plymouth but I am sure I will find other things to do!Desperately need to get back to the gym as I haven't been for over a week, just felt too tired and having this hernia doesn't help any...Strange day at work as I suddenly have loads of compliments coming my way and some of them are a bit too in my face for my liking! Strange how people think it is OK to make really personal comments when you are a fat person getting thinner but when I was a fat person getting fatter no one thought to say 'you really should stop putting weight on or you will have a heart attack'!! Suddenly I am everybodys property...and lovely though it is I am not used to it!! :? Ah well, always end up staying up too late when I go out to WI as I am always a bit buzzy! Best get off to bed..have an extra teenage girl for the weekend so better build up my strenth!!
weigh in tonight and have lost another 3 pounds so that is fab!! 3 stone 13pounds to date and it is the end of foundation next week so I just have to lose that one pound!!! There were only 3 of us at the group tonight, somebody else has dropped out which seems such a shame at this point, and we were all a bit shocked as we have become very close as a group, and somebody else was on holiday. The three of us there tonight are all going into the same developers group and all have about the same left to lose so that will be cool! Will be strange moving to a Sunday as I have enjoyed my Wed night jaunt to Plymouth but I am sure I will find other things to do!Desperately need to get back to the gym as I haven't been for over a week, just felt too tired and having this hernia doesn't help any...Strange day at work as I suddenly have loads of compliments coming my way and some of them are a bit too in my face for my liking! Strange how people think it is OK to make really personal comments when you are a fat person getting thinner but when I was a fat person getting fatter no one thought to say 'you really should stop putting weight on or you will have a heart attack'!! Suddenly I am everybodys property...and lovely though it is I am not used to it!! :? Ah well, always end up staying up too late when I go out to WI as I am always a bit buzzy! Best get off to bed..have an extra teenage girl for the weekend so better build up my strenth!!
Monday, 26 November 2007
day 83
26th nov 07
Hi blog, couldn't get to you again last night so here is a resume..again!Yesterday did two lovely long walks with Ian and Oscar across the moor so felt pretty good and stuck to the foodpacks. Cooked chicken breasts and roast veg for everybody and told them to bin whatever they didn't eat! I cna't have food to pick at in the house at the moment which is really pathetic but just the way it is at the moment! Trying to sort it all out in my head but seem to be in a cheating myself sort of phase, almost like I have done so well that myself can't believe it or even allow it to happen...wierd things brains!!So, had a good day at work and went to a meeting this afternoon with my chief exec who I haven't seen for a few weeks. She asked me if i had been away as i looked so healthy and then said 'there is something really different about you'..!! I explained that I had lost a lot of weight and she was really nice and said how fantastic I looked and what was my secret etc etc! Felt really pleased because we don't have that sort of relationship really !lol Tonight came home and sorted the fires out, got coal, carried logs and took Oscar for a walk on to the edge of the moor..walked up one of the paths but it was really misty and got a bit spooked in the dark so bought him home!! There are a couple of hounds wandering around from a hunt last week, they always seem to lose a couple, and I am a bit wary of them!!Big flipping dogs!Sorry...not a 'hunt' is it...they exercise their dogs!! Ha Ha! ~:( Sorry won't be political....Zia and Ian were at rugby training at Newquay so got back starving and fed them sausages and french bread...all left over sausages donated to Oscar! He is definately going to need LL for dogs by the time I finish this!!Have just had a hot bath and am sitting down with my last pack, vanilla and coffee. Got to go and do a self defense course for work in the morning which is always fun, so can dress down instead of up! Have also agreed to go to the work dinner dance with a group of women from my building, I don't usually go to things like that but hey..new dress?? Actually I don't possess a dress so that will be fun!! Don't think I will be a lot lighter by the 17th Dec so need to try a few on this weekend, or I might just go black trousers and a glitzy top, and my killer heels!!Well bedtime I think....
Saturday, 24 November 2007
day 80
24th nov 07
Blimey who would have thought I would get to 80 days!!? ME..Mrs yo yo/I am too busy to think about going on a diet!! Just proves how good this is, and even though I have been dragged kicking and screaming at times, with my rebellious child drumming her heels on the floor, I am here three and a half stone lighter!! ..and STILL here and STILL wanting to carry on with it! So thanks to all of those wonderful people on here who have kept me going, and particularly Mollyjak who gives me a sharp slap across the back of the legs occassionally and is my best support, I suspect I will be here for another 80 days and so sail around the world twice!! :D Today has been hard in some ways as I have really wanted to eat and have felt really hungry. although of course it is only emotional hunger, but I have still struggled with it...but not given in!! Fanily had chinese tomight and I had to leave them to it whereas I can normally sit with them and it not bother me...wandered into the kitchen afterwards and Ian was just washing up, and had put all the leftovers in the bin, or in the dog, so obviously picked up on my mood and likely picking!! !shy Talking of the dog, somebody has decided to have an hour long firework display tomight, just across the road from us, so my jack russell is a quivering heap in his bed in the kitchen..bless hime, he hates it and we thought it was over for the year!!It was really cold and wet today, icy first thing when Z went off on her driving lesson, so I haven't managed any walking yet...but I have put my first item for sale on ebay!! A lot easier than I thought so I shall do some more tomorrow and then wait and see what happens! : Well it is late so I think I need to get some sleep and applaud another good day! Night blog!!
Blimey who would have thought I would get to 80 days!!? ME..Mrs yo yo/I am too busy to think about going on a diet!! Just proves how good this is, and even though I have been dragged kicking and screaming at times, with my rebellious child drumming her heels on the floor, I am here three and a half stone lighter!! ..and STILL here and STILL wanting to carry on with it! So thanks to all of those wonderful people on here who have kept me going, and particularly Mollyjak who gives me a sharp slap across the back of the legs occassionally and is my best support, I suspect I will be here for another 80 days and so sail around the world twice!! :D Today has been hard in some ways as I have really wanted to eat and have felt really hungry. although of course it is only emotional hunger, but I have still struggled with it...but not given in!! Fanily had chinese tomight and I had to leave them to it whereas I can normally sit with them and it not bother me...wandered into the kitchen afterwards and Ian was just washing up, and had put all the leftovers in the bin, or in the dog, so obviously picked up on my mood and likely picking!! !shy Talking of the dog, somebody has decided to have an hour long firework display tomight, just across the road from us, so my jack russell is a quivering heap in his bed in the kitchen..bless hime, he hates it and we thought it was over for the year!!It was really cold and wet today, icy first thing when Z went off on her driving lesson, so I haven't managed any walking yet...but I have put my first item for sale on ebay!! A lot easier than I thought so I shall do some more tomorrow and then wait and see what happens! : Well it is late so I think I need to get some sleep and applaud another good day! Night blog!!
Friday, 23 November 2007
day 79
23rd Nov 2007
so glad it is the weekend! Feeling good today and sticking to everything OK, working my way through the water at a rate of knots! Z's 17th birthday today and i think she has had a good one! Went into town to buy a new tank for her corn snake and it is really nice and snake seems really happy...well as far as you can tell with a snake! Currently hanging from a branch basking under a lamp, not a bad life! Z has got her first driving lesson tomorrow at 9am...should be fun!! :@ need to try and keep really on top of LL this weekend so will be looking for some support on here. Not got a lot planned, which is nice, so going to try to get to the gym a couple of times and also sell some of my 'good' big clothes on ebay. Never sold on ebay before...!If the weather stays nice I want to take the dog out for a good walk as well, a three miler if I am up to it! Got a route planned out and armed with my pedometer and a bottle of water should be nice!Well latte time before bed so night blog!!
so glad it is the weekend! Feeling good today and sticking to everything OK, working my way through the water at a rate of knots! Z's 17th birthday today and i think she has had a good one! Went into town to buy a new tank for her corn snake and it is really nice and snake seems really happy...well as far as you can tell with a snake! Currently hanging from a branch basking under a lamp, not a bad life! Z has got her first driving lesson tomorrow at 9am...should be fun!! :@ need to try and keep really on top of LL this weekend so will be looking for some support on here. Not got a lot planned, which is nice, so going to try to get to the gym a couple of times and also sell some of my 'good' big clothes on ebay. Never sold on ebay before...!If the weather stays nice I want to take the dog out for a good walk as well, a three miler if I am up to it! Got a route planned out and armed with my pedometer and a bottle of water should be nice!Well latte time before bed so night blog!!
Thursday, 22 November 2007
day 78
22nd nov 07
well have to do an update as I couldnt get online for the last couple of nights!The hernia seems to have calmed down and is just a bit uncomfortable, went for bloods this morning so have a nice bruise on my arm now!Had weigh in last night and stayed the same which was OK cos of the picking and not feeling well, and I already feel like I have lost weight today as I have stuck to it all and am re motivated!The corn snake is a bit jittery and hiding at the moment but managed to eat this afternoon...don't ask.... !ill Had z's gcse presentation tonight which was nice and she got 2 awards one for English Lit and one for PE which makes me very proud! It is her 17th birthday tomorrow and her first driving lesson on Saturday, where has the time gone! One of her best friends came up to me at the awards tonight and said 'mrs B where have you all gone, you look really good!' which I take as the ultimate compliment from a 17 year old!Work busy but it will soon be the week end and I am NOT working this one so looking forward to a relaxing time..I live in hope! Z wants me to make fajitas for her birthday tea tomorrow so we don't go out for a meal and I am not tempted to cheat! Bless her!
well have to do an update as I couldnt get online for the last couple of nights!The hernia seems to have calmed down and is just a bit uncomfortable, went for bloods this morning so have a nice bruise on my arm now!Had weigh in last night and stayed the same which was OK cos of the picking and not feeling well, and I already feel like I have lost weight today as I have stuck to it all and am re motivated!The corn snake is a bit jittery and hiding at the moment but managed to eat this afternoon...don't ask.... !ill Had z's gcse presentation tonight which was nice and she got 2 awards one for English Lit and one for PE which makes me very proud! It is her 17th birthday tomorrow and her first driving lesson on Saturday, where has the time gone! One of her best friends came up to me at the awards tonight and said 'mrs B where have you all gone, you look really good!' which I take as the ultimate compliment from a 17 year old!Work busy but it will soon be the week end and I am NOT working this one so looking forward to a relaxing time..I live in hope! Z wants me to make fajitas for her birthday tea tomorrow so we don't go out for a meal and I am not tempted to cheat! Bless her!
Tuesday, 20 November 2007
day 76
nov 20th 07
Just a quickie blog! Had a busy day and got on top of lots of paperwork which was great and I feel a lot better for it! Had a board meeting tonight which went on a bit and so have just got in and having my caffe latte!! Yumm...had a good food day but a bit short on water so am topping up as we speak...Z has just got a corn snake so her bedroom seems to have turned into a vivarium...just as long as I don't have to feed it!! !dodge Weigh in tomorrow so fingers crossed, as ever I don't feel that I have lost and actually with my tum problem I haven't done any exercise at all so won't worry if I haven't cos I have had some really good losses and if I don't lose this week then I will next! :D
Just a quickie blog! Had a busy day and got on top of lots of paperwork which was great and I feel a lot better for it! Had a board meeting tonight which went on a bit and so have just got in and having my caffe latte!! Yumm...had a good food day but a bit short on water so am topping up as we speak...Z has just got a corn snake so her bedroom seems to have turned into a vivarium...just as long as I don't have to feed it!! !dodge Weigh in tomorrow so fingers crossed, as ever I don't feel that I have lost and actually with my tum problem I haven't done any exercise at all so won't worry if I haven't cos I have had some really good losses and if I don't lose this week then I will next! :D
Monday, 19 November 2007
day 75
19th nov 07
well blog three quarters of the way through foundation, never thought i would make this in a million years!Not a fabulous day today really. Woke up and had my lie in after working yesterday which was nice but I still was feeling tender in my tummy and a bit sick. Went into work for a few hours and felt awful, really sick and pains in my back and I could feel a lump in my tum so I got an appt at the GP for 5pm. Really lucky cos although it was an emergency appt I saw my doc who supported me in LL so didn't have to go through the whole saga. Was really worried in the waiting room as others were being called in to diff doctors cos I thought 'I know he/she will tell me to stop/have a break/tell me off'etc etc....adapted child coming through loud and clear!! I had my record book and foodpacks with me to explain but didn't need them! It was the first time Dr S had seen me since I started LL and although he didn't make a fuss he was impressed at what I had lost. Had a look at me and decided thatI may have a hernia so is sending me for blood tests and an ultra sound to see what is going on. Reckons that I may have had it for some time and because I have lost so much weight it has become more obvious rather than hiding in my jelly belly!! He also said that sometimes when you lose a lot of weight you can get pockets of fat that hang around in your gut...lovely thought!!So feel better knowing what it might be as I had run through every possibility in my head and over dramatised it all as ever! B) C had a parents review for two of her subjects and got positive feedback which was nice to hear and Z is becoming the proud owner of a corn snake tomorrow which doesn't fill me with delight as I know who will end up feeding it!! (and they don't eat vegetarian!!)..actually have put my foot down on that one and I know she will be a responsible snake owner!!Managed to stick to the packs today and forced the water down as it did actually stop me feeling worse, seem to have gone back on chocolate at night which is good as I need to cut down the coffee to one a dayI think.Well going to take my sore tum to bed with a HWB I think and see what tomorrow brings!
well blog three quarters of the way through foundation, never thought i would make this in a million years!Not a fabulous day today really. Woke up and had my lie in after working yesterday which was nice but I still was feeling tender in my tummy and a bit sick. Went into work for a few hours and felt awful, really sick and pains in my back and I could feel a lump in my tum so I got an appt at the GP for 5pm. Really lucky cos although it was an emergency appt I saw my doc who supported me in LL so didn't have to go through the whole saga. Was really worried in the waiting room as others were being called in to diff doctors cos I thought 'I know he/she will tell me to stop/have a break/tell me off'etc etc....adapted child coming through loud and clear!! I had my record book and foodpacks with me to explain but didn't need them! It was the first time Dr S had seen me since I started LL and although he didn't make a fuss he was impressed at what I had lost. Had a look at me and decided thatI may have a hernia so is sending me for blood tests and an ultra sound to see what is going on. Reckons that I may have had it for some time and because I have lost so much weight it has become more obvious rather than hiding in my jelly belly!! He also said that sometimes when you lose a lot of weight you can get pockets of fat that hang around in your gut...lovely thought!!So feel better knowing what it might be as I had run through every possibility in my head and over dramatised it all as ever! B) C had a parents review for two of her subjects and got positive feedback which was nice to hear and Z is becoming the proud owner of a corn snake tomorrow which doesn't fill me with delight as I know who will end up feeding it!! (and they don't eat vegetarian!!)..actually have put my foot down on that one and I know she will be a responsible snake owner!!Managed to stick to the packs today and forced the water down as it did actually stop me feeling worse, seem to have gone back on chocolate at night which is good as I need to cut down the coffee to one a dayI think.Well going to take my sore tum to bed with a HWB I think and see what tomorrow brings!
Sunday, 18 November 2007
day 71
15th nov 07
hi Blog! First of all thanks to everybody who comments on the blogs, I really look forward to reading the comments it helps me to feel inspired!!
Having said that its been a day from hell..OH in a not happy mood due to work stuff and for some reason I end up shouldering most of that and wandering round at home trying to make it all right again...and feeling very stressed!! We discussed a bit of this last night at class and about the 'superwoman' messages that feminism gave us in the 70s that we still carry around. So I have to work full time in a difficult job, and look after the children, and the house, and cook and wash and iron etc etc!! Stepford wives is nothing on it!Anyway it is all a bit tense at the moment..so I did my superwoman and made the Christmas cake (now cooling..), cooked fajitas for tea, put the washing in and then threw a temper tantrum....so I didn't do the washing up, the girls did!! ..and I let emotional hunger get to me and ate a piece of chicken that was sitting in the fridge..bugger!
I knew what i was doing, and I did just eat the chicken breast, no skin and no carbs to go with it so at least there was some damage limitation but it was a real 'now look what you made me do' moment!! Never mind, done now and I feel really sick so it serves me right really!! This is NOT how to cope with stress!!
missed my tea time foodpack so am just having a vanilla latte and then will try to get some sleep. Took the dog out a while ago and it was really beautiful on the moor, all the stars were out and it was quite frosty...nice to get a night time walk, must do it more often!
funny day, hope tomorrow is a bit better, but I doubt it somehow! will try to deal with it a bit better though, need to do a thought record I think!!
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hi Blog! First of all thanks to everybody who comments on the blogs, I really look forward to reading the comments it helps me to feel inspired!!
Having said that its been a day from hell..OH in a not happy mood due to work stuff and for some reason I end up shouldering most of that and wandering round at home trying to make it all right again...and feeling very stressed!! We discussed a bit of this last night at class and about the 'superwoman' messages that feminism gave us in the 70s that we still carry around. So I have to work full time in a difficult job, and look after the children, and the house, and cook and wash and iron etc etc!! Stepford wives is nothing on it!Anyway it is all a bit tense at the moment..so I did my superwoman and made the Christmas cake (now cooling..), cooked fajitas for tea, put the washing in and then threw a temper tantrum....so I didn't do the washing up, the girls did!! ..and I let emotional hunger get to me and ate a piece of chicken that was sitting in the fridge..bugger!
I knew what i was doing, and I did just eat the chicken breast, no skin and no carbs to go with it so at least there was some damage limitation but it was a real 'now look what you made me do' moment!! Never mind, done now and I feel really sick so it serves me right really!! This is NOT how to cope with stress!!
missed my tea time foodpack so am just having a vanilla latte and then will try to get some sleep. Took the dog out a while ago and it was really beautiful on the moor, all the stars were out and it was quite frosty...nice to get a night time walk, must do it more often!
funny day, hope tomorrow is a bit better, but I doubt it somehow! will try to deal with it a bit better though, need to do a thought record I think!!
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day 74
18th nov 07
Had quite a busy day as I was working today to catch up with some of my team. Had to go to Truro early so managed a wander around M&S and got a really nice top that I have been after for a while. It is only a work one but I got an18 and it fits really well! Chuffed!!
Still got this tender tummy and feel a bit sick so think I may be bunged up (!) or have a tummy bug, will see how it goes this week. Don't have a temp so have taken the infamous dulcolax and we will see how that goes.....
Have managed to stop picking today and I am sure that will help the tummy as I am giving it all the wrong messages by eating bits and then stopping! So have had 3 vanillas today with coffee and a cranberry bar, I loooove them! Have gone off all the others at the moment...
Have decided not to buy cooked chicken or ham as they seem to be my weakness and if they are there in the fridge then I seem to pick at them! I would not have said pre LL that they would be a problem, more likely bread, pasta etc but they are not bothering me at all! Perhaps I know in my head that proteins are pref to carbs and so the crooked thinking tells me that it is OK to eat them!mmmm, get back in the box those thoughts and stay there until I can deal with you!
Z had a rugby match in Taunton today and they drew so happy with that! Yet more horrid rugby kit to wash! C has appt for her MRI scan on 6th dec at 6pm so at least we can see what is going on with her knee injury and get it sorted before next spring! Poor love!
Invented a very yummy looking butternut squash curry for their tea which they had with naan bread, one to save for when I am eating again!!
Well lie in tomorrow to make up for working today, bliss..paper and womans hour for me, and no interruptions!!
Had quite a busy day as I was working today to catch up with some of my team. Had to go to Truro early so managed a wander around M&S and got a really nice top that I have been after for a while. It is only a work one but I got an18 and it fits really well! Chuffed!!
Still got this tender tummy and feel a bit sick so think I may be bunged up (!) or have a tummy bug, will see how it goes this week. Don't have a temp so have taken the infamous dulcolax and we will see how that goes.....
Have managed to stop picking today and I am sure that will help the tummy as I am giving it all the wrong messages by eating bits and then stopping! So have had 3 vanillas today with coffee and a cranberry bar, I loooove them! Have gone off all the others at the moment...
Have decided not to buy cooked chicken or ham as they seem to be my weakness and if they are there in the fridge then I seem to pick at them! I would not have said pre LL that they would be a problem, more likely bread, pasta etc but they are not bothering me at all! Perhaps I know in my head that proteins are pref to carbs and so the crooked thinking tells me that it is OK to eat them!mmmm, get back in the box those thoughts and stay there until I can deal with you!
Z had a rugby match in Taunton today and they drew so happy with that! Yet more horrid rugby kit to wash! C has appt for her MRI scan on 6th dec at 6pm so at least we can see what is going on with her knee injury and get it sorted before next spring! Poor love!
Invented a very yummy looking butternut squash curry for their tea which they had with naan bread, one to save for when I am eating again!!
Well lie in tomorrow to make up for working today, bliss..paper and womans hour for me, and no interruptions!!
Saturday, 17 November 2007
day 73
17th Nov 07
Bit of a strange day again today and have been picking at chicken again!!Really good all day, went shopping to Plymouth which is quite hard as C is still on crutches and it was really busy so she was all stressed out! People can be so rude, we waited ages for an elevator in the car park cos she can't do the steps and all these charming older ladies just pushed in front of her!! and I am sure they complain about the younger generation!! :D Met up with Ian and Z and we had spudulike lunch, and I had my fizzy water and st clements..Z reckons I will get arrested one of these days as I carry it around in a little box and tip it into my water, very suspect!!Stopped at waitrose and we did the shopping for the week, lovely bread in waitrose!! Dammit!!Also bought some cooked chicken for lunches next week, all in my plan of not being tied to the kitchen, but have eaten most of it...just pick, pick pick! Really cross with myself cos I have done this a few times now..only protein and only small amounts, but I don't know why I am being so stupid... ~:( I am not particularly hungry, or deprived but it is just because it is there..!Well it isn't a major disaster, and it has been a horrid week, so I will chalk it down to experience and get back on the road tomorrow! May consider Reds plan of having the odd night off so that it is planned and therefore doesn't feel quite so 'bad' which of course is what I am trying to avoid! Doh, the games we play with ourselves!!I have also got a really tender tummy which is making me feel not brilliant, keeping on drinking the water and have a docs appt a week on Monday but hopefully it will have gone by then and is just a tummy bug..Got to work tomorrow so better have some sleep! Night blog, thanks for listening!
Bit of a strange day again today and have been picking at chicken again!!Really good all day, went shopping to Plymouth which is quite hard as C is still on crutches and it was really busy so she was all stressed out! People can be so rude, we waited ages for an elevator in the car park cos she can't do the steps and all these charming older ladies just pushed in front of her!! and I am sure they complain about the younger generation!! :D Met up with Ian and Z and we had spudulike lunch, and I had my fizzy water and st clements..Z reckons I will get arrested one of these days as I carry it around in a little box and tip it into my water, very suspect!!Stopped at waitrose and we did the shopping for the week, lovely bread in waitrose!! Dammit!!Also bought some cooked chicken for lunches next week, all in my plan of not being tied to the kitchen, but have eaten most of it...just pick, pick pick! Really cross with myself cos I have done this a few times now..only protein and only small amounts, but I don't know why I am being so stupid... ~:( I am not particularly hungry, or deprived but it is just because it is there..!Well it isn't a major disaster, and it has been a horrid week, so I will chalk it down to experience and get back on the road tomorrow! May consider Reds plan of having the odd night off so that it is planned and therefore doesn't feel quite so 'bad' which of course is what I am trying to avoid! Doh, the games we play with ourselves!!I have also got a really tender tummy which is making me feel not brilliant, keeping on drinking the water and have a docs appt a week on Monday but hopefully it will have gone by then and is just a tummy bug..Got to work tomorrow so better have some sleep! Night blog, thanks for listening!
Friday, 16 November 2007
day 72
16th nov 07
well all seems a little calmer in the house today! OH didn't sleep last night and was wandering around sending e mails at 5am but then crashed for the morning and a lot happier when he woke up. I was working at home today so spent the day on the lap top and got lots done so felt like a productive day, although still have too much to fit in so am working Sunday then having Mon am off which I am looking forward to! Shopping in Plymouth tomorrow..H&M here we come!!Have enjoyed children in need tonight, always puts things into perspective, and we are watching the buzzcocks in a moment which I will enjoy!LL wise not done bad today, although have had 2 bars so will be one down on another day but can live with that, needed it today! Done my water and am on litre no 5, lots of fizzy today so am very gassy!! !dodge Looking for a dress for a posh do in Dec so like others on here am scouring the charity shops!! Don't want to spend a lot as I am still a long way off my target so will keep looking! Took three bags of stuff to a charity shop in town this afternoon and they were thrilled! All good stuff that if I had the time I could sell on e bay..but I haven't although feel a lot better having got rid of that little lot!!
well all seems a little calmer in the house today! OH didn't sleep last night and was wandering around sending e mails at 5am but then crashed for the morning and a lot happier when he woke up. I was working at home today so spent the day on the lap top and got lots done so felt like a productive day, although still have too much to fit in so am working Sunday then having Mon am off which I am looking forward to! Shopping in Plymouth tomorrow..H&M here we come!!Have enjoyed children in need tonight, always puts things into perspective, and we are watching the buzzcocks in a moment which I will enjoy!LL wise not done bad today, although have had 2 bars so will be one down on another day but can live with that, needed it today! Done my water and am on litre no 5, lots of fizzy today so am very gassy!! !dodge Looking for a dress for a posh do in Dec so like others on here am scouring the charity shops!! Don't want to spend a lot as I am still a long way off my target so will keep looking! Took three bags of stuff to a charity shop in town this afternoon and they were thrilled! All good stuff that if I had the time I could sell on e bay..but I haven't although feel a lot better having got rid of that little lot!!
Wednesday, 14 November 2007
day 70
14th nov 07
weigh in tonight and have lost another 5pounds!! Thats 51 pounds altogether and i am soooo pleased!! This diet is brilliant and I cannot praise it enough..my LLC is great and our classes are great fun, and incredibly hard work! An emotional roller coaster but I am learning more about how i tick everyday!!Rest of the day has been really busy but pales into insignificance after class! So onwards towards developers in 3 weeks, there are four of us from the group going on togehter so that will be good as we have got quite close as a group....Night blog, thanks for always being there!!
weigh in tonight and have lost another 5pounds!! Thats 51 pounds altogether and i am soooo pleased!! This diet is brilliant and I cannot praise it enough..my LLC is great and our classes are great fun, and incredibly hard work! An emotional roller coaster but I am learning more about how i tick everyday!!Rest of the day has been really busy but pales into insignificance after class! So onwards towards developers in 3 weeks, there are four of us from the group going on togehter so that will be good as we have got quite close as a group....Night blog, thanks for always being there!!
Tuesday, 13 November 2007
day 69
13th nov 07
well somebody save me from moody teenagers!! Have had a bucket full tonight, but didn't resort to eating toast and marmite or drinking a bottle of wine, so I must have learnt something!Have spent the evening helping to make choc truffles for her best friends b/day tomorrow, strange how food is in everything we do isn't it!!Soooo we have a fridge full of truffles talking to me in dulcit tones which I will ignore until they disappear off on the school bus tomorrow morning!!Been at a conference in Truro today and blow me they had curry and rice/nan or lasagne and garlic bread for lunch, not the expected buffet! So I went for a walk for 40 mins which was quite nice. I also had a 2L bottle of water with me which was all I drank all day so happy with that, coffee is always foul at these things anyway!Felt like a long drive back as it was really dark and wet and I was paged half way back so had to sit in a layby on my mobile and it was actually sleeting on my windscreen, winter is really here!Strange sort of day, feeling a bit out of sorts with it all..and weigh in tomorrow and I am not convinced I have lost anything.....we shall see!!Night Blog!
well somebody save me from moody teenagers!! Have had a bucket full tonight, but didn't resort to eating toast and marmite or drinking a bottle of wine, so I must have learnt something!Have spent the evening helping to make choc truffles for her best friends b/day tomorrow, strange how food is in everything we do isn't it!!Soooo we have a fridge full of truffles talking to me in dulcit tones which I will ignore until they disappear off on the school bus tomorrow morning!!Been at a conference in Truro today and blow me they had curry and rice/nan or lasagne and garlic bread for lunch, not the expected buffet! So I went for a walk for 40 mins which was quite nice. I also had a 2L bottle of water with me which was all I drank all day so happy with that, coffee is always foul at these things anyway!Felt like a long drive back as it was really dark and wet and I was paged half way back so had to sit in a layby on my mobile and it was actually sleeting on my windscreen, winter is really here!Strange sort of day, feeling a bit out of sorts with it all..and weigh in tomorrow and I am not convinced I have lost anything.....we shall see!!Night Blog!
Monday, 12 November 2007
day 68
12th nov 07
Hi blog, well back to work after a good weekend. Been quite busy and have also decided to make a christmas cake! Deciding between Delias recipe or Nigella and think i will go with Nigella as there is a lot more fruit in it! Haven't made a Christmas cake for years but as we have lost both our mums in recent years there is nobody left to make it so its over to me! Feel quite excited about it actually and the girls are very up for helping so hopefully that is something else they can learn!! Doesn't worry me as I am not a cake eater, now if it had been a sausage roll or bacon and egg pie that might have been a different matter!So, have stuck to the meals today but am getting pretty bored with them and really only enjoying vanilla and the bars, and fizzy water with st clements in. I feel as though I am on a downward stretch to 100 days and I really need to get my head around what happens next as I still have 6 stone to lose! Will talk to my LLC on wed when I weigh in and see what she can do to kick me up the bum! Having said that I have stuck to this for 67 days more than I expected to and nobody can take that away from me!So to bed and off to Truro tomorrow, another buffet lunch to deal with!! Getting good at walking round with a plate with half a sanwich on which I can leave somewhere at the end of the meal!! Much easier than a sit down meal!! :D
Hi blog, well back to work after a good weekend. Been quite busy and have also decided to make a christmas cake! Deciding between Delias recipe or Nigella and think i will go with Nigella as there is a lot more fruit in it! Haven't made a Christmas cake for years but as we have lost both our mums in recent years there is nobody left to make it so its over to me! Feel quite excited about it actually and the girls are very up for helping so hopefully that is something else they can learn!! Doesn't worry me as I am not a cake eater, now if it had been a sausage roll or bacon and egg pie that might have been a different matter!So, have stuck to the meals today but am getting pretty bored with them and really only enjoying vanilla and the bars, and fizzy water with st clements in. I feel as though I am on a downward stretch to 100 days and I really need to get my head around what happens next as I still have 6 stone to lose! Will talk to my LLC on wed when I weigh in and see what she can do to kick me up the bum! Having said that I have stuck to this for 67 days more than I expected to and nobody can take that away from me!So to bed and off to Truro tomorrow, another buffet lunch to deal with!! Getting good at walking round with a plate with half a sanwich on which I can leave somewhere at the end of the meal!! Much easier than a sit down meal!! :D
Sunday, 11 November 2007
day 67
11th Nov 07
Sunday again blog, and rememberance Sunday at that. Have watched a lot of emotive stuff on TV as I always do..my mum and dad both served in the airforce in ww2 and actually met at an airbase in somerset so it means a lot to our family. My dad is 84 now and never misses a trick!LL wise not a bad day and have stuck to everything. Had a board meeting this morning first thing and they had got organic peppermint tea in for me as I don't drink coffee!! So that was a good start to the day..love my pmint tea in the morning!Feeling quite tired again so haven't done too much apart from walk the dog..oh and keep 2 log fires going, cook dinner, washing and ironing and clean the bathroom! so actually I have done quite a lot! !lol Feeling quite sleepy so will keep this short..night blog!xxxx
Sunday again blog, and rememberance Sunday at that. Have watched a lot of emotive stuff on TV as I always do..my mum and dad both served in the airforce in ww2 and actually met at an airbase in somerset so it means a lot to our family. My dad is 84 now and never misses a trick!LL wise not a bad day and have stuck to everything. Had a board meeting this morning first thing and they had got organic peppermint tea in for me as I don't drink coffee!! So that was a good start to the day..love my pmint tea in the morning!Feeling quite tired again so haven't done too much apart from walk the dog..oh and keep 2 log fires going, cook dinner, washing and ironing and clean the bathroom! so actually I have done quite a lot! !lol Feeling quite sleepy so will keep this short..night blog!xxxx
Saturday, 10 November 2007
day 66
10th Nov 07
...well i just wrote a huge blog, went to post it and it all vanished..aaagghhh!!Can't do it all again so here is a precis...today I have been chauffeur and farm shopper, visited friends and watched making of Christmas cakes! Kids are toasting marshmallows and the smell is really sickly, waiting for them to drop them on the rug...just waiting... :D So good day, busy, happy..love the weekend!¬!!
...well i just wrote a huge blog, went to post it and it all vanished..aaagghhh!!Can't do it all again so here is a precis...today I have been chauffeur and farm shopper, visited friends and watched making of Christmas cakes! Kids are toasting marshmallows and the smell is really sickly, waiting for them to drop them on the rug...just waiting... :D So good day, busy, happy..love the weekend!¬!!
day 65
9th Nov 07
Thank heavens it is Friday, feeling washed out and becoming a pathological food sniffer at the moment!! Dragged myself to the gym tonight and lasted about 40 mins, first time since 10k and I still ache but feel better for having gone! Cooked a big stew to keep the troops happy and drove C to a sleepover at her friends...don't know why they are called that as they never seem to sleep when they are here! Last one I caught them all playing Twister at about 3am! Wish I had some 14 year old energy!!Mind you it seems to be fuelled on chocolate and toast so maybe not!Had a good day food wise and managed my water OK. Couple of people commented on my changing shape which was nice! We are having a glrls night out to a local dinner dance just before Christmas to test out the new dresses and it seems that I am going to pay the full whack to push my food around my plate, ah well never mind!! What a burning martyr I can be that night!!Well off to sniff some more food before I go to bed! Nice bit of cheese I think!!
Thank heavens it is Friday, feeling washed out and becoming a pathological food sniffer at the moment!! Dragged myself to the gym tonight and lasted about 40 mins, first time since 10k and I still ache but feel better for having gone! Cooked a big stew to keep the troops happy and drove C to a sleepover at her friends...don't know why they are called that as they never seem to sleep when they are here! Last one I caught them all playing Twister at about 3am! Wish I had some 14 year old energy!!Mind you it seems to be fuelled on chocolate and toast so maybe not!Had a good day food wise and managed my water OK. Couple of people commented on my changing shape which was nice! We are having a glrls night out to a local dinner dance just before Christmas to test out the new dresses and it seems that I am going to pay the full whack to push my food around my plate, ah well never mind!! What a burning martyr I can be that night!!Well off to sniff some more food before I go to bed! Nice bit of cheese I think!!
Thursday, 8 November 2007
day 64
8th Nov 07
Blimey blog, what a long day! Fortunately had a bit of a late start and worked from home first thing then picked Z up from School and dropped her home. Had a good morning and feeling very positive...TOTM started for first time since LL which would explain the toffee craving yesterday, have never learned to spot the signs after all this time! Would also explain the backache and tiredness that I put down solely to the 10k!Stuck to all my foodplans today and have done OK with water, need to try an extra litre really. will do tomorrow. Had a big meet at HQ this afternoon and then home, find tea for kids and off to board meeting and AGM at theatre company I belong to and sit on the board. Things a bit heated at the meeting and it went on from 1830 to after 10pm, and we are meeting again on Sunday morning so feel like a wet dishcloth! Came home and looked for the toffee but fortunately somebody had eaten it! I will not have that satans food in my house again, ever!!So not a bad day and am back in ketosis, bought some strips from the chemist which they re;uctantly sold me...'has my doctor said that I need them?'..doh, I am 51 years old, [u]I [/u]have said that I need them, and I promise to treat them responsibly and not use too many at once!! For goodness sake!
Blimey blog, what a long day! Fortunately had a bit of a late start and worked from home first thing then picked Z up from School and dropped her home. Had a good morning and feeling very positive...TOTM started for first time since LL which would explain the toffee craving yesterday, have never learned to spot the signs after all this time! Would also explain the backache and tiredness that I put down solely to the 10k!Stuck to all my foodplans today and have done OK with water, need to try an extra litre really. will do tomorrow. Had a big meet at HQ this afternoon and then home, find tea for kids and off to board meeting and AGM at theatre company I belong to and sit on the board. Things a bit heated at the meeting and it went on from 1830 to after 10pm, and we are meeting again on Sunday morning so feel like a wet dishcloth! Came home and looked for the toffee but fortunately somebody had eaten it! I will not have that satans food in my house again, ever!!So not a bad day and am back in ketosis, bought some strips from the chemist which they re;uctantly sold me...'has my doctor said that I need them?'..doh, I am 51 years old, [u]I [/u]have said that I need them, and I promise to treat them responsibly and not use too many at once!! For goodness sake!
Wednesday, 7 November 2007
day 62
7th Nov 07
weigh in no 9 and another 3 pounds off! Amazing!!Feeling tired cos it is quite a haul to plymouth and back and I am still tired from sunday. Not got the resources to re charge as quickly.Good class tonight and we did lots about game playing and we all shared loads of stuff, I found it quite tough as a lot of it focused on me and I tend to bounce it off when that happens normally, but I couldn't do that in this situation!! Not good for the control freak in me!Determined to have a really good week this week with no picking, all my packs and the full 4 litres a day..I owe it to myself in the last 4 weeks of foundation!!
weigh in no 9 and another 3 pounds off! Amazing!!Feeling tired cos it is quite a haul to plymouth and back and I am still tired from sunday. Not got the resources to re charge as quickly.Good class tonight and we did lots about game playing and we all shared loads of stuff, I found it quite tough as a lot of it focused on me and I tend to bounce it off when that happens normally, but I couldn't do that in this situation!! Not good for the control freak in me!Determined to have a really good week this week with no picking, all my packs and the full 4 litres a day..I owe it to myself in the last 4 weeks of foundation!!
Tuesday, 6 November 2007
day 62
6th Nov07
color=#cc33cc]Hi blog! Boy I am still sooooo stiff from the 10k, I am obviously a lot less fit than i thought I was! Walking around this morning like i had just ridden across the desert on horseback!!Meetings in Newquay and Truro today so a bit of driving, but a nice sunny day for it all, and had half an hor to kill in Truro so bought Birthday pressies for my niece in accessorize which always cheers me up! Lovely wooly gloves and patterned tights, hope they meet with the 15 year old approval but I think they will! She has 2 brothers, as I did, so I know she likes a few girly things around her!After work booked in for another 'float', thought it would help the aching muscles and it was fabulous the second time around! I knew what I was doing so had no probs with closing the lid etv and although my mind was really racing for the first 10 mins I then fell asleep and must have slept for 30 mins. Woke feeling absolutely brill, very calm, skin all soft and am now feeling just normally tired!! I bet I sleep well tonight, I know I did last time!So got home and we cracked all last nights washing up from the bonfire party, including oven trays (yeuch) and turned the left over spuds into stuffed cheesy potatoes for their tea.Ian and Z went to the gym and I stood in the kitchen and ate 3 pieces of Thorntons treacle toffee!! Now why the hell did I do that??? I have no idea other than 'it was there' and 'it's not fair that I can't have any'.....well how pathetic can a grown woman get?!So i've dusted my self down, left the toffee where it is cos realitically I have to deal with food having teenengers in the house, accepted that I did what I did, had a bath, painted my nails and am on my 2nd litre of water in an attempt to dilute the damage!We live and learn and I now know that toffee hides in dark places and attacks while your mind is engaged elsewhere! Ah well with any other diet I would have given up and finished off all the rest of the leftovers, but I ain't done that!! :) So to tomorrow and weigh in and if I haven't done as well as I should, it's my own fault!! [color=#ff00cc][/color] [/color]
color=#cc33cc]Hi blog! Boy I am still sooooo stiff from the 10k, I am obviously a lot less fit than i thought I was! Walking around this morning like i had just ridden across the desert on horseback!!Meetings in Newquay and Truro today so a bit of driving, but a nice sunny day for it all, and had half an hor to kill in Truro so bought Birthday pressies for my niece in accessorize which always cheers me up! Lovely wooly gloves and patterned tights, hope they meet with the 15 year old approval but I think they will! She has 2 brothers, as I did, so I know she likes a few girly things around her!After work booked in for another 'float', thought it would help the aching muscles and it was fabulous the second time around! I knew what I was doing so had no probs with closing the lid etv and although my mind was really racing for the first 10 mins I then fell asleep and must have slept for 30 mins. Woke feeling absolutely brill, very calm, skin all soft and am now feeling just normally tired!! I bet I sleep well tonight, I know I did last time!So got home and we cracked all last nights washing up from the bonfire party, including oven trays (yeuch) and turned the left over spuds into stuffed cheesy potatoes for their tea.Ian and Z went to the gym and I stood in the kitchen and ate 3 pieces of Thorntons treacle toffee!! Now why the hell did I do that??? I have no idea other than 'it was there' and 'it's not fair that I can't have any'.....well how pathetic can a grown woman get?!So i've dusted my self down, left the toffee where it is cos realitically I have to deal with food having teenengers in the house, accepted that I did what I did, had a bath, painted my nails and am on my 2nd litre of water in an attempt to dilute the damage!We live and learn and I now know that toffee hides in dark places and attacks while your mind is engaged elsewhere! Ah well with any other diet I would have given up and finished off all the rest of the leftovers, but I ain't done that!! :) So to tomorrow and weigh in and if I haven't done as well as I should, it's my own fault!! [color=#ff00cc][/color] [/color]
Monday, 5 November 2007
day 61
5th Nov 07
very quick! Have just had a bonfire party and had about 18 people in who I fed sausages, jacket spuds, baguettes, red wine etc..my favourite sort of food!! Didn't pick but am left with a whole pile of ginger bread and carrot cake that other people bought! aaagghh! Packed lunches for the rest of them tomorrow I think!It was a good night and enjoyed by every body from the tots to the non tots and the girls made a guy which was fun! OH did his pyrotechnic bit and was like a small boy with his fireworks! Bless..Oscar listened to chill FM so wasnt too traumatised and our field is a fair way from the house..Really tired and achy after the walk yesterday though so to bed I think!
very quick! Have just had a bonfire party and had about 18 people in who I fed sausages, jacket spuds, baguettes, red wine etc..my favourite sort of food!! Didn't pick but am left with a whole pile of ginger bread and carrot cake that other people bought! aaagghh! Packed lunches for the rest of them tomorrow I think!It was a good night and enjoyed by every body from the tots to the non tots and the girls made a guy which was fun! OH did his pyrotechnic bit and was like a small boy with his fireworks! Bless..Oscar listened to chill FM so wasnt too traumatised and our field is a fair way from the house..Really tired and achy after the walk yesterday though so to bed I think!
Sunday, 4 November 2007
day 60
4th Nov 07
Well blog, today was the day of the 10k stride at Lanhydrock and Oscar and I managed to finish so we were very pleased with ourselves! It was very hard going though and I think being on 500 calories a day certainly impacts on my stamina as I felt very weary! My feet ache like anything now, but I feel pretty buzzy as well.It was a beautiful walk and the weather was good, went all through the woods and along the riverbank but it took us nearly 3 hours and we were definately bringing up the rear! Well organised and loads of loos though and plenty of water on route, not that I drank too much..if you know what I mean!Put all my blogs on my blogger and will put some photos on their as well and post the link.Thanks to all who supported me, I raised about £150 for cancer research...and I wore my step counter and did 8.83 miles, 18674 steps and burned 1340 cals, so I had better have a good weightloss this week!!Well to top up the water and then to bed I think....
Well blog, today was the day of the 10k stride at Lanhydrock and Oscar and I managed to finish so we were very pleased with ourselves! It was very hard going though and I think being on 500 calories a day certainly impacts on my stamina as I felt very weary! My feet ache like anything now, but I feel pretty buzzy as well.It was a beautiful walk and the weather was good, went all through the woods and along the riverbank but it took us nearly 3 hours and we were definately bringing up the rear! Well organised and loads of loos though and plenty of water on route, not that I drank too much..if you know what I mean!Put all my blogs on my blogger and will put some photos on their as well and post the link.Thanks to all who supported me, I raised about £150 for cancer research...and I wore my step counter and did 8.83 miles, 18674 steps and burned 1340 cals, so I had better have a good weightloss this week!!Well to top up the water and then to bed I think....
Saturday, 3 November 2007
day 59
3rd Nov 07
Quick one tonight blog! Just been to a party at the village hall which was good fun and quite a lot like something out of the Vicar of Dibley!!Enjoyed people watching and the girls faces as they watched the adults on the dance floor! Took 2 bottles of fizzy water with me and sank them and Ian took a decent bottle of wine with him so he had a mellow night, which he needed as work has been tough this week!Went shopping in Liskeard this morning with Z and we stopped for a peppermint tea and a choc steamer for her, got back to the car and it had a ticket on it!10 mins over, and £40 lighter...was really cross! Also tried to get a pair of jeans and couldn't, they fit my legs and bum, but my tummy is huge still...maybe I will look at a tummy tuck when all this is over!Any way I have had another good food day and avoided all the home made quiches and pasta salads at the party so pretty chuffed with myself! And I wore the new shoes!!!
Quick one tonight blog! Just been to a party at the village hall which was good fun and quite a lot like something out of the Vicar of Dibley!!Enjoyed people watching and the girls faces as they watched the adults on the dance floor! Took 2 bottles of fizzy water with me and sank them and Ian took a decent bottle of wine with him so he had a mellow night, which he needed as work has been tough this week!Went shopping in Liskeard this morning with Z and we stopped for a peppermint tea and a choc steamer for her, got back to the car and it had a ticket on it!10 mins over, and £40 lighter...was really cross! Also tried to get a pair of jeans and couldn't, they fit my legs and bum, but my tummy is huge still...maybe I will look at a tummy tuck when all this is over!Any way I have had another good food day and avoided all the home made quiches and pasta salads at the party so pretty chuffed with myself! And I wore the new shoes!!!
well the big walk tomorrow so had better get to sleep....night blog ;)
Friday, 2 November 2007
day 58
2nd Nov 07
well Friday again, where has the week gone? Good day and busy again, Had to go to Truro and Redruth so dropped the girls off in Truro first thing and then met them for lunch. Went to my favourite place which is a Wholefood Cafe called Fodders (next to the market if you are ever there!) and they tucked into huge jacket spuds while I had a proper pot of peppermint tea which was very nice! Also crunched my cranberry bar and then left them again enjoying the shops. Picked them up after work at M&S and spent a happy half hour trying on jackets..fit into a size 18 Per Una jacket which as Z said it was no good getting as it would be too big in a couple of weeks!! I have never fit into ANYTHING in per una and they have some lovely stuff in there so felt really chuffed! Roll on size 14....any way as I had hit 3 stone this week I had to buy myself some killer dress sandles to wear with the little black dress that i have yet to buy for Christmas, they are black slingbacks with 4 inch heels and lots of bling on the front and I love them, have been wearing them with my PJs all night!! Can't remember the last time I felt confident enough to wear heels, and as for slingbacks, mut have been 20 years ago!! :D :D We bought salmon and veg for tea for them and hit the road home and have had a relaxing eveing in front of the fire, going through a cold phase again so have just had a hot bath and feeling quite chilled.The girls have bought Oscar a cancer research tee shirt for his walk with me on sunday, he doesn't seem keen and I think pink is not his colour, but he does look sweet!! Will try to post a pic on my face book and copy a link!So have managed another day and tomorrow is the start of the mess de cluttering, and then a party in the evening..and a chance to wear the new sandles!!Bet I am barefoot within 20 miutes of getting there!!
well Friday again, where has the week gone? Good day and busy again, Had to go to Truro and Redruth so dropped the girls off in Truro first thing and then met them for lunch. Went to my favourite place which is a Wholefood Cafe called Fodders (next to the market if you are ever there!) and they tucked into huge jacket spuds while I had a proper pot of peppermint tea which was very nice! Also crunched my cranberry bar and then left them again enjoying the shops. Picked them up after work at M&S and spent a happy half hour trying on jackets..fit into a size 18 Per Una jacket which as Z said it was no good getting as it would be too big in a couple of weeks!! I have never fit into ANYTHING in per una and they have some lovely stuff in there so felt really chuffed! Roll on size 14....any way as I had hit 3 stone this week I had to buy myself some killer dress sandles to wear with the little black dress that i have yet to buy for Christmas, they are black slingbacks with 4 inch heels and lots of bling on the front and I love them, have been wearing them with my PJs all night!! Can't remember the last time I felt confident enough to wear heels, and as for slingbacks, mut have been 20 years ago!! :D :D We bought salmon and veg for tea for them and hit the road home and have had a relaxing eveing in front of the fire, going through a cold phase again so have just had a hot bath and feeling quite chilled.The girls have bought Oscar a cancer research tee shirt for his walk with me on sunday, he doesn't seem keen and I think pink is not his colour, but he does look sweet!! Will try to post a pic on my face book and copy a link!So have managed another day and tomorrow is the start of the mess de cluttering, and then a party in the evening..and a chance to wear the new sandles!!Bet I am barefoot within 20 miutes of getting there!!
day 58
2nd Nov 07
well Friday again, where has the week gone? Good day and busy again, Had to go to Truro and Redruth so dropped the girls off in Truro first thing and then met them for lunch. Went to my favourite place which is a Wholefood Cafe called Fodders (next to the market if you are ever there!) and they tucked into huge jacket spuds while I had a proper pot of peppermint tea which was very nice! Also crunched my cranberry bar and then left them again enjoying the shops. Picked them up after work at M&S and spent a happy half hour trying on jackets..fit into a size 18 Per Una jacket which as Z said it was no good getting as it would be too big in a couple of weeks!! I have never fit into ANYTHING in per una and they have some lovely stuff in there so felt really chuffed! Roll on size 14....any way as I had hit 3 stone this week I had to buy myself some killer dress sandles to wear with the little black dress that i have yet to buy for Christmas, they are black slingbacks with 4 inch heels and lots of bling on the front and I love them, have been wearing them with my PJs all night!! Can't remember the last time I felt confident enough to wear heels, and as for slingbacks, mut have been 20 years ago!! :D :D We bought salmon and veg for tea for them and hit the road home and have had a relaxing eveing in front of the fire, going through a cold phase again so have just had a hot bath and feeling quite chilled.The girls have bought Oscar a cancer research tee shirt for his walk with me on sunday, he doesn't seem keen and I think pink is not his colour, but he does look sweet!! Will try to post a pic on my face book and copy a link!So have managed another day and tomorrow is the start of the mess de cluttering, and then a party in the evening..and a chance to wear the new sandles!!Bet I am barefoot within 20 miutes of getting there!!
well Friday again, where has the week gone? Good day and busy again, Had to go to Truro and Redruth so dropped the girls off in Truro first thing and then met them for lunch. Went to my favourite place which is a Wholefood Cafe called Fodders (next to the market if you are ever there!) and they tucked into huge jacket spuds while I had a proper pot of peppermint tea which was very nice! Also crunched my cranberry bar and then left them again enjoying the shops. Picked them up after work at M&S and spent a happy half hour trying on jackets..fit into a size 18 Per Una jacket which as Z said it was no good getting as it would be too big in a couple of weeks!! I have never fit into ANYTHING in per una and they have some lovely stuff in there so felt really chuffed! Roll on size 14....any way as I had hit 3 stone this week I had to buy myself some killer dress sandles to wear with the little black dress that i have yet to buy for Christmas, they are black slingbacks with 4 inch heels and lots of bling on the front and I love them, have been wearing them with my PJs all night!! Can't remember the last time I felt confident enough to wear heels, and as for slingbacks, mut have been 20 years ago!! :D :D We bought salmon and veg for tea for them and hit the road home and have had a relaxing eveing in front of the fire, going through a cold phase again so have just had a hot bath and feeling quite chilled.The girls have bought Oscar a cancer research tee shirt for his walk with me on sunday, he doesn't seem keen and I think pink is not his colour, but he does look sweet!! Will try to post a pic on my face book and copy a link!So have managed another day and tomorrow is the start of the mess de cluttering, and then a party in the evening..and a chance to wear the new sandles!!Bet I am barefoot within 20 miutes of getting there!!
Thursday, 1 November 2007
day 57
1st Nov 07
Hi again blog! Another perfect day, stuck to it all and have drunk all my water and just generally feeling more positive about everything! Work is busy and that helps and I was able to be in the office at meal times which helps as I can make drinkable soup! Not wanted to pick at all today so hopefully that will nail that for the moment. Also cooked tea for family tonight which i haven't done for a few days and i was back to enjoying the cooking and we enjoyed sitting down together and talking which I have missed. Aware that they are eating much smaller amounts of food as I am not doing my great big casseroles etc and just cooking what will get eaten, this will have to be the way forward as well! Interestingly all have lost some weight and all three are watching what they eat, in a very positive way. Both girls are incredibly supportive of me doing this and I believe are realising that to avoid being in a similar position when they get older that they need to focus now and think about what they put in their bodies...and I so hope that they do learn from me!! OH is great and learning to cook, bless him! He did absently mindedly say to me 'lets take a day off and go to 'Fifteen' for lunch', my favourite restaurant at Watergate Bay, so I had to beat him with the newspaper!! Jamie will just have to live without our custom for the moment!Well its the big 10k on Sunday and the weather forecast is good so fingers crossed that it is OK and that oscar and I make it in one piece!!
Hi again blog! Another perfect day, stuck to it all and have drunk all my water and just generally feeling more positive about everything! Work is busy and that helps and I was able to be in the office at meal times which helps as I can make drinkable soup! Not wanted to pick at all today so hopefully that will nail that for the moment. Also cooked tea for family tonight which i haven't done for a few days and i was back to enjoying the cooking and we enjoyed sitting down together and talking which I have missed. Aware that they are eating much smaller amounts of food as I am not doing my great big casseroles etc and just cooking what will get eaten, this will have to be the way forward as well! Interestingly all have lost some weight and all three are watching what they eat, in a very positive way. Both girls are incredibly supportive of me doing this and I believe are realising that to avoid being in a similar position when they get older that they need to focus now and think about what they put in their bodies...and I so hope that they do learn from me!! OH is great and learning to cook, bless him! He did absently mindedly say to me 'lets take a day off and go to 'Fifteen' for lunch', my favourite restaurant at Watergate Bay, so I had to beat him with the newspaper!! Jamie will just have to live without our custom for the moment!Well its the big 10k on Sunday and the weather forecast is good so fingers crossed that it is OK and that oscar and I make it in one piece!!
Wednesday, 31 October 2007
day 56
31st oct 07
well weigh in number 8 and another 3 pounds off, so I am one happy bunny!3stone 1pound in eight weeks. will aim for 4 stone by the end of foundation.Busy day, lots of meetings and driving and a buffet lunch thrown in, so had to have another walk round the block to keep away from the pasties! Curse living in Cornwall sometimes!Class was really good although only 3 of us there and I did some thought plans about how I would have reacted to the sort of day I have had and how I did react today. Bit of a shock to realise how much I was 'rewarding' myself with junk food after a stressfull meeting, because I deserved it and my LLC said I was a junk food junkie!! I would NEVER have admitted to that but looking at it she is right. Not all the time but certainly under stress and in a hurry I would stop at Burger King or the Bakers for a quick fix rather than the fruit shop, wow this stuff really works!Felling a bit like I am getting the dreaded cold so going to have a soak and then an early ish night...oh and the cooking is going well, they managed to cook sausage and mash tonight!!..and I am not washing up either!!night blog!!
well weigh in number 8 and another 3 pounds off, so I am one happy bunny!3stone 1pound in eight weeks. will aim for 4 stone by the end of foundation.Busy day, lots of meetings and driving and a buffet lunch thrown in, so had to have another walk round the block to keep away from the pasties! Curse living in Cornwall sometimes!Class was really good although only 3 of us there and I did some thought plans about how I would have reacted to the sort of day I have had and how I did react today. Bit of a shock to realise how much I was 'rewarding' myself with junk food after a stressfull meeting, because I deserved it and my LLC said I was a junk food junkie!! I would NEVER have admitted to that but looking at it she is right. Not all the time but certainly under stress and in a hurry I would stop at Burger King or the Bakers for a quick fix rather than the fruit shop, wow this stuff really works!Felling a bit like I am getting the dreaded cold so going to have a soak and then an early ish night...oh and the cooking is going well, they managed to cook sausage and mash tonight!!..and I am not washing up either!!night blog!!
Tuesday, 30 October 2007
day 55
30th oct 07
Good day today blog and back to it all with a vengeance, no cheating and have had all my water and all my packs!! Feeling great again, weigh in tomorrow and we shall see what we see. Just measured myself and have lost a total of 19 inches off my bust waist and hips which is astounding! Where does it all go? I visualise all this fat melting off me and leaving a trail as I walk around...yeuchh!!Have started on my list from yesterday and found out about meditation which is either on a Monday or a Sunday morning. When I move groups in Dec I have a choice of Tuesday or Sunday afternoon so I might do Sunday and then spend the day in Plymouth so I can meditate in the morning, shop or something in the early afternoon and then go to LL..sounds a good day to me!!Had my hour in the bath tonight while they all cooked tea and I read my book, bliss..but not yet started on the de cluttering campaign, starting this on Saturday!Had a stroke of genius today and found a bundle of size 18 clothes which I bought for £28. There are about four pairs of jeans, combats etc, several pretty tops to go out in and a few tops I can use for work as well as a jacket, cardi and sweater dress..really pleased as I have little to wear at the moment and although some of this may be too small I know I will grow into it!!..and I can't wait!! Like the scrap booking idea that somebody was talking about so I want to look into that as well, might go into one of the craft shops this weekend and have a nose around.Work is OK, half term so a lot of people on leave which means I can get on with what I need to do. Have decided to only take the bank holidays at Christmas so that I have less days to stress about and less temptation!
Good day today blog and back to it all with a vengeance, no cheating and have had all my water and all my packs!! Feeling great again, weigh in tomorrow and we shall see what we see. Just measured myself and have lost a total of 19 inches off my bust waist and hips which is astounding! Where does it all go? I visualise all this fat melting off me and leaving a trail as I walk around...yeuchh!!Have started on my list from yesterday and found out about meditation which is either on a Monday or a Sunday morning. When I move groups in Dec I have a choice of Tuesday or Sunday afternoon so I might do Sunday and then spend the day in Plymouth so I can meditate in the morning, shop or something in the early afternoon and then go to LL..sounds a good day to me!!Had my hour in the bath tonight while they all cooked tea and I read my book, bliss..but not yet started on the de cluttering campaign, starting this on Saturday!Had a stroke of genius today and found a bundle of size 18 clothes which I bought for £28. There are about four pairs of jeans, combats etc, several pretty tops to go out in and a few tops I can use for work as well as a jacket, cardi and sweater dress..really pleased as I have little to wear at the moment and although some of this may be too small I know I will grow into it!!..and I can't wait!! Like the scrap booking idea that somebody was talking about so I want to look into that as well, might go into one of the craft shops this weekend and have a nose around.Work is OK, half term so a lot of people on leave which means I can get on with what I need to do. Have decided to only take the bank holidays at Christmas so that I have less days to stress about and less temptation!
Monday, 29 October 2007
day 54
29th Oct 07
Hi blog, in a much better space today, Ithink it is weekends that freak me out as I have too much time on my hands and constantly feel as though I should be doing something rather than recognising that I am knackered and letting it go! So the second half of foundation has a few new rules and objectives-1. I don't have to cook every night and if I say I am not cooking then one of the others has to step in. My part of that deal will be to make sure that there is loads of food in that they can cook that is good for them (not planning on losing control of my kitchen totally just yet!!)2. I will not tidy up before the cleaner comes in! If the house is a mess so be it!3. I will have at least an hour of me time at some point during the day, on my own if I want to! I will walk, read, go to the gym, lie in a bath..whatever I want to4. I will explore the meditation classes at the Buddhist Centre as I have always wanted to do this and feel it will help me to focus.5. I will celebrate each day that I complete and take it a day at a time again, I have got complacent, not drunk enough water and missed out on some of the packs, not to mention nibbling..this stops now!6. Each week I will reward myself in some way. Have booked reflexology this week, courtesy of my Nectar card, and another float next week. It is good to have something to look forward to.7...this is the biggy, I am going to de clutter my life and my house by Christmas. I feel hemmed in by the amount of things I am keeping that just need to go elsewhere. It is true that we keep things out of guilt or a fear of letting go, but I am no longer scared of letting go and this is truly a revelation to me!So dear blog, onwards to next year and a new me!!
Hi blog, in a much better space today, Ithink it is weekends that freak me out as I have too much time on my hands and constantly feel as though I should be doing something rather than recognising that I am knackered and letting it go! So the second half of foundation has a few new rules and objectives-1. I don't have to cook every night and if I say I am not cooking then one of the others has to step in. My part of that deal will be to make sure that there is loads of food in that they can cook that is good for them (not planning on losing control of my kitchen totally just yet!!)2. I will not tidy up before the cleaner comes in! If the house is a mess so be it!3. I will have at least an hour of me time at some point during the day, on my own if I want to! I will walk, read, go to the gym, lie in a bath..whatever I want to4. I will explore the meditation classes at the Buddhist Centre as I have always wanted to do this and feel it will help me to focus.5. I will celebrate each day that I complete and take it a day at a time again, I have got complacent, not drunk enough water and missed out on some of the packs, not to mention nibbling..this stops now!6. Each week I will reward myself in some way. Have booked reflexology this week, courtesy of my Nectar card, and another float next week. It is good to have something to look forward to.7...this is the biggy, I am going to de clutter my life and my house by Christmas. I feel hemmed in by the amount of things I am keeping that just need to go elsewhere. It is true that we keep things out of guilt or a fear of letting go, but I am no longer scared of letting go and this is truly a revelation to me!So dear blog, onwards to next year and a new me!!
Sunday, 28 October 2007
day 53
28th oct 07
what a crabby cow I have been today!! Not a nice person to be with and definately feeling put on by everybody else! Sent them all out to play/watch rugby and managed to get to grips with washing, ironing, cooking spag bol and catching up on my life, so marginally more happy when they got back! Z's team beat Tavistock and C enjoyed hopping around on crutches and getting lots of sympathy...Went to see my friend for a drink, haven't seen her since i started so lots of positives from her and I remembered my peppermint tea bag which she was very impressed at! Had a good catch up on photos and gossip which always makes me feel better!Went on ebay to try to get a pair of jeans and marginally lost the only ones I wanted, but I did buy a very plain black dress for a posh do I have in dec..it was v cheap and I got a size 18, which may or may not fit by then!! I thought with black I can dress it up with something like a cerise shrug, pashmina and new shoes..and if it is too big then so be it and i shall be off to monsoon!!I think I may have to not cook for a few days as I am struggling with it at the mo and was pinching bits of meat out of the bol sauce, a habit I need to knock on the head right now! Have had a couple of bits of chicken this week, not much but its a bad habit. I am lucky that I am still in ketosis but it almost feels like I am trying to challenge that and self sabotage raises its ugly head!! Why???! Because, thats why...!
what a crabby cow I have been today!! Not a nice person to be with and definately feeling put on by everybody else! Sent them all out to play/watch rugby and managed to get to grips with washing, ironing, cooking spag bol and catching up on my life, so marginally more happy when they got back! Z's team beat Tavistock and C enjoyed hopping around on crutches and getting lots of sympathy...Went to see my friend for a drink, haven't seen her since i started so lots of positives from her and I remembered my peppermint tea bag which she was very impressed at! Had a good catch up on photos and gossip which always makes me feel better!Went on ebay to try to get a pair of jeans and marginally lost the only ones I wanted, but I did buy a very plain black dress for a posh do I have in dec..it was v cheap and I got a size 18, which may or may not fit by then!! I thought with black I can dress it up with something like a cerise shrug, pashmina and new shoes..and if it is too big then so be it and i shall be off to monsoon!!I think I may have to not cook for a few days as I am struggling with it at the mo and was pinching bits of meat out of the bol sauce, a habit I need to knock on the head right now! Have had a couple of bits of chicken this week, not much but its a bad habit. I am lucky that I am still in ketosis but it almost feels like I am trying to challenge that and self sabotage raises its ugly head!! Why???! Because, thats why...!
day 52
27th oct 07
Well blog, sorry about last night but no 1 daughter was out at an all night party and rang me about half 11 asking to be picked up!! Sounded a bit worse for wear (!) so what could I do?? Off into the wind and rain to drive across the moor to get her, pour her into the car and feed her toast and 2 pints of water when she got home...feeling a little fragile today, lets hope she learns from it!! Meanwhile no 2 daughter had 4 friends sleeping over so they had taken over the front room and were frighteneing themselves with horror movies so had to make more rounds of toast and hot chocolate to keep them happy!!..and guess what hubby slept through it all!! One of the perks of living in a 150 year old house is the size of the walls!! Anyway thats why I ignored you!So today had a hair appt in Plymouth and had my highlights done and straightened..did a bit of window shopping and bought walking shoes for the 10k next week, thanks those who have sponsored me! Will have to do it now!! Hope the weather cheers up!Struggling with clothes shopping as nothing I have fits me but I don't know what size to buy anymore, and I am reluctant to buy things at the mo as I know I will be smaller soon! Sounds pathetic but its a real dilemma for me, so I got nothing!! I think I need a day with just me to try things on and be sensible and get a cheap pair of jeans, black trousers and a couple of tops that I know I will pass on again!Had fun tonight though, went to a wedding reception and had my first experience of people I have known for years not recognising me!! Really enjoyed saying hello and watching them double take when they recognised my voice!! Had four bottles of fizzy water with ice so am feeling well hydrated! There was a pasty supper which smelt great but I resisted which is hard as pastry is my absolute downfall!!! Horrid foggy drive back, second night running, so am looking forward to staying put tomorrow night!!Fire, bath, book and telly I hope!Well, to bed and enjoy the extra hour!
Well blog, sorry about last night but no 1 daughter was out at an all night party and rang me about half 11 asking to be picked up!! Sounded a bit worse for wear (!) so what could I do?? Off into the wind and rain to drive across the moor to get her, pour her into the car and feed her toast and 2 pints of water when she got home...feeling a little fragile today, lets hope she learns from it!! Meanwhile no 2 daughter had 4 friends sleeping over so they had taken over the front room and were frighteneing themselves with horror movies so had to make more rounds of toast and hot chocolate to keep them happy!!..and guess what hubby slept through it all!! One of the perks of living in a 150 year old house is the size of the walls!! Anyway thats why I ignored you!So today had a hair appt in Plymouth and had my highlights done and straightened..did a bit of window shopping and bought walking shoes for the 10k next week, thanks those who have sponsored me! Will have to do it now!! Hope the weather cheers up!Struggling with clothes shopping as nothing I have fits me but I don't know what size to buy anymore, and I am reluctant to buy things at the mo as I know I will be smaller soon! Sounds pathetic but its a real dilemma for me, so I got nothing!! I think I need a day with just me to try things on and be sensible and get a cheap pair of jeans, black trousers and a couple of tops that I know I will pass on again!Had fun tonight though, went to a wedding reception and had my first experience of people I have known for years not recognising me!! Really enjoyed saying hello and watching them double take when they recognised my voice!! Had four bottles of fizzy water with ice so am feeling well hydrated! There was a pasty supper which smelt great but I resisted which is hard as pastry is my absolute downfall!!! Horrid foggy drive back, second night running, so am looking forward to staying put tomorrow night!!Fire, bath, book and telly I hope!Well, to bed and enjoy the extra hour!
day 50
25th oct 07
so half way through part one then blog!! Thought I had blogged last night but it isn't here so maybe I dreamed it all! Weigh in no 7 last night and another 4 pounds off so 40 altogether which is amazing. Could not have believed that I would lose so much so easily when I started this. Yes it has its ups and downs but because of abstinence it is so much easier to control the bad days and celebrate the good, and there are many more good days than bad! I feel like a different person, much more confident both at work and at home which is unnerving a few people but that is their problem and not mine, and I feel I can start to become the person I have wanted to be for some time. I don't want to change as I actually like myself but just become a stronger and more capable role model for my daughters and a more rounded person than I have been.Oh and I also want to buy a frou frou dress from Monsoon for Christmas, go to River Island and buy jeans, or not if i don't like the cut, and the jimmy choos are still calling me..oh and kitten heels for the dress I think!!So still a while to go, perhaps 3 stone by next week, that would be perfect, but still have 5 stone to lose before my BMI is healthy and that is my ultimate goal! Pleased to discover that my BMI is now obese rather than morbidly obese, another 3 stone and I will only be overweight, how cool is that!!Well to bed blog, to dream of skinny jeans and shimmy dresses!
so half way through part one then blog!! Thought I had blogged last night but it isn't here so maybe I dreamed it all! Weigh in no 7 last night and another 4 pounds off so 40 altogether which is amazing. Could not have believed that I would lose so much so easily when I started this. Yes it has its ups and downs but because of abstinence it is so much easier to control the bad days and celebrate the good, and there are many more good days than bad! I feel like a different person, much more confident both at work and at home which is unnerving a few people but that is their problem and not mine, and I feel I can start to become the person I have wanted to be for some time. I don't want to change as I actually like myself but just become a stronger and more capable role model for my daughters and a more rounded person than I have been.Oh and I also want to buy a frou frou dress from Monsoon for Christmas, go to River Island and buy jeans, or not if i don't like the cut, and the jimmy choos are still calling me..oh and kitten heels for the dress I think!!So still a while to go, perhaps 3 stone by next week, that would be perfect, but still have 5 stone to lose before my BMI is healthy and that is my ultimate goal! Pleased to discover that my BMI is now obese rather than morbidly obese, another 3 stone and I will only be overweight, how cool is that!!Well to bed blog, to dream of skinny jeans and shimmy dresses!
day 48
23rd oct 07
..ah well struggling on but feeling a bit underwhelmed with everything at the mo!Back to work after long w/e off which helps me focus, am a lot better at work as I seem to have more routine, even though I am driving all over the place! Had my flu jab at occ health today and that always makes me feel carp, and then I wondered if there was anything in the injection that was not LL friendly, which is just silly...Soooo...putting my adult head back on firmly from tomorrow morning and stopping my negative thinking!! Have a hard day as I am out with a bunch of docs and supposed to be having lunch with them so my pa is on hand to page me just as we sit down!!!..I can them make my apologies and leave...hope non of them come on here, sorry chaps if you do!!Just had my hot choc, so last half litre of water and then bed!!night blog....
..ah well struggling on but feeling a bit underwhelmed with everything at the mo!Back to work after long w/e off which helps me focus, am a lot better at work as I seem to have more routine, even though I am driving all over the place! Had my flu jab at occ health today and that always makes me feel carp, and then I wondered if there was anything in the injection that was not LL friendly, which is just silly...Soooo...putting my adult head back on firmly from tomorrow morning and stopping my negative thinking!! Have a hard day as I am out with a bunch of docs and supposed to be having lunch with them so my pa is on hand to page me just as we sit down!!!..I can them make my apologies and leave...hope non of them come on here, sorry chaps if you do!!Just had my hot choc, so last half litre of water and then bed!!night blog....
day 47
22nd oct 07
Just one of those days blog!! Had a day off and had big plans...did clear out the bathroom of all empty bottles etc, sorted out a mountain of washing and ironing, threw out a bag of odd socks (where do they go??) and old knickers, got to the bottom of the washing basket and cooked roast chicken, spuds and veg for all for tea...so quite busy!! Oh and also took delivery of a load of logs which took us an hour to stack in the back yard, don't need the gym today!! BUT feeling a bit dizzy and wierd all day, had my packs and about 6 litres of water so Iam going to head for bed and try to sleep it off....night, night sleep tight Blog!-x-
Just one of those days blog!! Had a day off and had big plans...did clear out the bathroom of all empty bottles etc, sorted out a mountain of washing and ironing, threw out a bag of odd socks (where do they go??) and old knickers, got to the bottom of the washing basket and cooked roast chicken, spuds and veg for all for tea...so quite busy!! Oh and also took delivery of a load of logs which took us an hour to stack in the back yard, don't need the gym today!! BUT feeling a bit dizzy and wierd all day, had my packs and about 6 litres of water so Iam going to head for bed and try to sleep it off....night, night sleep tight Blog!-x-
day 46
21 oct 07
well Blog wrote a long entry yesterday and it vanished into the ether!! Suffice it to say that we enjoyed The Police, Sting is still a sight to behold (!) and Cardiff is a very beautiful city! BUT i did let myself off the leash and had a glass of lager on Fri night and a piece of M&S chicken on Saturday, and I thoroughly enjoyed both as I had made the decision to have them and wasn't telling myself I was 'cheating' or pretending I wasn't having them!Today I am back with a vengeance and have stuck to my usual packs. Took C shopping in Plymouth as she can't play rugby at the moment and she had her makeup done at the Benefits stall in Debenhams, which ended up costing me an arm and a leg, but she looks v pretty and it cheered her up no end to be made a fuss of! We had lunch in Costa as I like their peppermint tea in a big glass mug and I munched my bar while she ate cheese and pepperoni!Tonight have had both fires lit and so the house is lovely and warm and we both have a day off tomorrow so am having a lazy end to the weekend. Going to blitz my bedroom tomorrow as it looks a real mess at the moment and it should be so nice in there!! Went for a walk to look at the stars but it was a bit cloudy so will do a re run tomorrow night!Night Blog, sleep tight!!
well Blog wrote a long entry yesterday and it vanished into the ether!! Suffice it to say that we enjoyed The Police, Sting is still a sight to behold (!) and Cardiff is a very beautiful city! BUT i did let myself off the leash and had a glass of lager on Fri night and a piece of M&S chicken on Saturday, and I thoroughly enjoyed both as I had made the decision to have them and wasn't telling myself I was 'cheating' or pretending I wasn't having them!Today I am back with a vengeance and have stuck to my usual packs. Took C shopping in Plymouth as she can't play rugby at the moment and she had her makeup done at the Benefits stall in Debenhams, which ended up costing me an arm and a leg, but she looks v pretty and it cheered her up no end to be made a fuss of! We had lunch in Costa as I like their peppermint tea in a big glass mug and I munched my bar while she ate cheese and pepperoni!Tonight have had both fires lit and so the house is lovely and warm and we both have a day off tomorrow so am having a lazy end to the weekend. Going to blitz my bedroom tomorrow as it looks a real mess at the moment and it should be so nice in there!! Went for a walk to look at the stars but it was a bit cloudy so will do a re run tomorrow night!Night Blog, sleep tight!!
day 43
18th oct 07
well poor old C has ruptured her ligament in her knee and needs an MRI scan and restorative surgery, so no rugby for the rest of the season which is a real blow to her having just been picked for County under 15's. Hopping around on crutches feeling sorry for herself..Busy work day which is the way I like them as no chance to think so stuck to all no problem and feel back in control. OH works at the same hospital as me ans said he saw me across the car park and had to double take to check it was me!!Got four days off now and am going to Cardiff tomorrow to see the Police at the Millennium Stadium so looking forward to that a lot! Taking the girls as well who will mooch around and find something to do while we are out! Probably hit room service at the hotel if I know them! Will do us all good to have a night away as it has all been stressfull recently.Won't blog tomorrow as I will be away but will catch up on Sat night...hope I can stick to this while away, and must remember to stop drinking tomorrow afternoon or I will spend the night on the loo instead of watching the lovely Sting!!
well poor old C has ruptured her ligament in her knee and needs an MRI scan and restorative surgery, so no rugby for the rest of the season which is a real blow to her having just been picked for County under 15's. Hopping around on crutches feeling sorry for herself..Busy work day which is the way I like them as no chance to think so stuck to all no problem and feel back in control. OH works at the same hospital as me ans said he saw me across the car park and had to double take to check it was me!!Got four days off now and am going to Cardiff tomorrow to see the Police at the Millennium Stadium so looking forward to that a lot! Taking the girls as well who will mooch around and find something to do while we are out! Probably hit room service at the hotel if I know them! Will do us all good to have a night away as it has all been stressfull recently.Won't blog tomorrow as I will be away but will catch up on Sat night...hope I can stick to this while away, and must remember to stop drinking tomorrow afternoon or I will spend the night on the loo instead of watching the lovely Sting!!
day 42
17th oct 07
Just a quickie tonight blog as I am tired out!Week 6 weigh in and 3 pounds off, thats 36 pounds in total and brings my to lose to 99 pounds, which suddenly feels that it might be achievable!! Haven't been this weight in a long time, and feel so much better about myself at the moment. Had a good group session tonight even though there are only four of us left and we had a good laugh, particularly at the scarves on the DVD which for some reason we found hilarious!! Lots of fairly deep stuff as well and we looked at the crooked thinking that has affected me this week...one of my maons was that I felt put on by doing the cooking and washing up all the time ans blow me when I got home all were fed and the house tidy, washing up done and a glowing fire in the living room....bliss!
Just a quickie tonight blog as I am tired out!Week 6 weigh in and 3 pounds off, thats 36 pounds in total and brings my to lose to 99 pounds, which suddenly feels that it might be achievable!! Haven't been this weight in a long time, and feel so much better about myself at the moment. Had a good group session tonight even though there are only four of us left and we had a good laugh, particularly at the scarves on the DVD which for some reason we found hilarious!! Lots of fairly deep stuff as well and we looked at the crooked thinking that has affected me this week...one of my maons was that I felt put on by doing the cooking and washing up all the time ans blow me when I got home all were fed and the house tidy, washing up done and a glowing fire in the living room....bliss!
day 41
16th oct 07
well another day of trauma! Took C to routine Drs appt this morning but as she hurt her knee playng rugby on Sun she had a look at it and has put her on crutches, sent her for x ray and booked her to see the consultant at fracture clinic on Thursday! Thinks she has torn the ligament and made me feel awful as of course I have been playing it down, as you do with 14 year old drama queen daughters! Ah well she is loping around on critches and I had to take a sudden day off work which always throws me....I have been a career woman since before they were born so I have to have control to make everything work!! Guess thats why I am so out of control with my food!! Otherwise the day has been fine and I am much more up beat than I have been for the last few days, horrible feeeling I am hitting menopause which could account for all of the hormonal stuff...great timing! Have my adult head firmly in place Mollyjak, and am certainly proud of what I have achieved so far. Horrible weather here tonight but I forced myself out to the gym, on my own, and walked for half an hour while watching emmerdale using their wireless sets..think I will time gym with these in future and watch Eastenders, makes it go so much faster! They have little boxes you borrow and clip to wherever you can find and then tune into one of the many TV screens and watch what you want!! Looks like our trip to Cardiff to see The Police on Friday night is out of the window..anybody want two tickets??!!
well another day of trauma! Took C to routine Drs appt this morning but as she hurt her knee playng rugby on Sun she had a look at it and has put her on crutches, sent her for x ray and booked her to see the consultant at fracture clinic on Thursday! Thinks she has torn the ligament and made me feel awful as of course I have been playing it down, as you do with 14 year old drama queen daughters! Ah well she is loping around on critches and I had to take a sudden day off work which always throws me....I have been a career woman since before they were born so I have to have control to make everything work!! Guess thats why I am so out of control with my food!! Otherwise the day has been fine and I am much more up beat than I have been for the last few days, horrible feeeling I am hitting menopause which could account for all of the hormonal stuff...great timing! Have my adult head firmly in place Mollyjak, and am certainly proud of what I have achieved so far. Horrible weather here tonight but I forced myself out to the gym, on my own, and walked for half an hour while watching emmerdale using their wireless sets..think I will time gym with these in future and watch Eastenders, makes it go so much faster! They have little boxes you borrow and clip to wherever you can find and then tune into one of the many TV screens and watch what you want!! Looks like our trip to Cardiff to see The Police on Friday night is out of the window..anybody want two tickets??!!
day 40
15th oct 07
Hi blog, don't know what happened to yesterdays blog, I think that I couldn't get on the site and that just made me out of synch..sorry!Yesterday and today OK days, some intrusive food thinking due to cold weather and old habits I think! Made toad in the hole for all after their rugby match yesterday and really struggled not to pinch all the crispy bits left in the tin, over to the ever increasing dog again I am afraid..do they do LL for dogs once owners end foundation I wonder?!...I really do need my little layer for winter you know, my Grandma always told me I did!Ah well the layer is going...Today had to do a day of self defense/personal safety update for work which means I spent the day in track bottoms practising techniques on the mats! Felt hungry by the end of the day as I expended a lot of energy although had my 2 litre bottle with me which I kept topped up!For some reason I am having a lot of self doubt about my ability to do this, although still doing it, so probably some hormonal something going on, I don't know I don't think I will ever understand my own head!! What I do know is that there is no way that this 33 pounds is going back on again whatever happens! Well crap nights sleep last night so intend to try for a better one tonight!! Night all!!
Hi blog, don't know what happened to yesterdays blog, I think that I couldn't get on the site and that just made me out of synch..sorry!Yesterday and today OK days, some intrusive food thinking due to cold weather and old habits I think! Made toad in the hole for all after their rugby match yesterday and really struggled not to pinch all the crispy bits left in the tin, over to the ever increasing dog again I am afraid..do they do LL for dogs once owners end foundation I wonder?!...I really do need my little layer for winter you know, my Grandma always told me I did!Ah well the layer is going...Today had to do a day of self defense/personal safety update for work which means I spent the day in track bottoms practising techniques on the mats! Felt hungry by the end of the day as I expended a lot of energy although had my 2 litre bottle with me which I kept topped up!For some reason I am having a lot of self doubt about my ability to do this, although still doing it, so probably some hormonal something going on, I don't know I don't think I will ever understand my own head!! What I do know is that there is no way that this 33 pounds is going back on again whatever happens! Well crap nights sleep last night so intend to try for a better one tonight!! Night all!!
day 38
13th oct 07
Hi blog, nearly forgot you!! Quite a tricky day as i have felt hungry again all day and all sorts of silly head stuff going on about 'well nobody will know if i eat that curry, carrot cake 'or whatever..fortunately my adult took over so am still on the straight and narrow!What did help was trying on a load of stuff that my mate has thrown out and finding that I could get a lot of things on that I hadn't expected to! I have thrown loads of big stuff out and have put all these in my wardrobe, strange having things that fit me well rather than big and baggy and although still size 18's they are M&S 18's and not Evans size 26 'whatever will fit me' outfits. There is a fab Autograph grey work pants suit that the jacket fits perfectly and the trousers will very soon that is just crying out for a pair of black heeled boots to go with it...always wanted a pair of Jimmy Choos...!
Hi blog, nearly forgot you!! Quite a tricky day as i have felt hungry again all day and all sorts of silly head stuff going on about 'well nobody will know if i eat that curry, carrot cake 'or whatever..fortunately my adult took over so am still on the straight and narrow!What did help was trying on a load of stuff that my mate has thrown out and finding that I could get a lot of things on that I hadn't expected to! I have thrown loads of big stuff out and have put all these in my wardrobe, strange having things that fit me well rather than big and baggy and although still size 18's they are M&S 18's and not Evans size 26 'whatever will fit me' outfits. There is a fab Autograph grey work pants suit that the jacket fits perfectly and the trousers will very soon that is just crying out for a pair of black heeled boots to go with it...always wanted a pair of Jimmy Choos...!
day 37
12th oct07
Hi blog, have had a great day! Really enjoyed the flotation tank and felt really calm afterwards. Am now really tired but apparently it helps you sleep well for up to 2 weeks so lets see what time I wake up tomorrow!! I actually drifted off a couple of times in the tank and found the whole experience a bit surreal but one I would want to repeat! It feels a bit odd at first but you are in control of whether to close the lid or not, which I did pretty quickly, and it isn't at all scarey. You float in about 9 inches of water which is body temp so it actually feels like you are floating in mid air, at least that is what your brain tells you, and the hour went really quickly. My skin feels amazing and I am soooooo tired!!Spent the rest of the day shopping and lunching in Truro, my friend loved it al, and it was a good belated B/day present for her, felt really positive AND she didn't nag me for not eating with her which is important to me as she is my oldest friend! ...she does come out with the odd rubbish about how I don't really need to lose weight though! Bless thats what friends are for...especially skinny ones!!!
Hi blog, have had a great day! Really enjoyed the flotation tank and felt really calm afterwards. Am now really tired but apparently it helps you sleep well for up to 2 weeks so lets see what time I wake up tomorrow!! I actually drifted off a couple of times in the tank and found the whole experience a bit surreal but one I would want to repeat! It feels a bit odd at first but you are in control of whether to close the lid or not, which I did pretty quickly, and it isn't at all scarey. You float in about 9 inches of water which is body temp so it actually feels like you are floating in mid air, at least that is what your brain tells you, and the hour went really quickly. My skin feels amazing and I am soooooo tired!!Spent the rest of the day shopping and lunching in Truro, my friend loved it al, and it was a good belated B/day present for her, felt really positive AND she didn't nag me for not eating with her which is important to me as she is my oldest friend! ...she does come out with the odd rubbish about how I don't really need to lose weight though! Bless thats what friends are for...especially skinny ones!!!
day 36
11th oct 07
Well what a day Blog!! Penzance first thing in the mist, then Truro then an hour in bed with a headache! Wonder why! Out for a meal tonight with my daughters boss who owns and chefs at a local bistro..she knew about LL beforehand and I told her I would be drinking water so, bless her, she did exactly the same!! She cooked a fantastic meal for Ian and the girls and we drank our fizzy water (although she had a few red wines as well) and had a really good night!! Just proved to me that I can enjoy a night out without stuffing myself which is a good message for me with impending Christmas parties!!..and I won't have a headache tomorrow! To eat they had fresh figs stuffed with cornish camembert, wrapped in Parma ham then roast in the oven. then pork slow cooked on a tomato and paprika (brought back from Hungary by us!!) sauce with rice and then filo pastry cases with pears and chocolate and ice cream..I enjoyed them enjoying it and loved the smells!!Tomorrow I am taking my friend of 40 years out for a suprise birthday day out! We met on our first day at Grammar School so its a long friendship!! She is terrified as she doesn't know what we are doing and my daughter told her we are doing a bungie jump!! As if!! We are actually each having an hour in a new floatation tank in Truro, supposed to be mega relaxing, and then going somewhere nice for lunch, possibly St Mawes..so I am looking forward to that. Will tell you how the floatation tank goes!
Well what a day Blog!! Penzance first thing in the mist, then Truro then an hour in bed with a headache! Wonder why! Out for a meal tonight with my daughters boss who owns and chefs at a local bistro..she knew about LL beforehand and I told her I would be drinking water so, bless her, she did exactly the same!! She cooked a fantastic meal for Ian and the girls and we drank our fizzy water (although she had a few red wines as well) and had a really good night!! Just proved to me that I can enjoy a night out without stuffing myself which is a good message for me with impending Christmas parties!!..and I won't have a headache tomorrow! To eat they had fresh figs stuffed with cornish camembert, wrapped in Parma ham then roast in the oven. then pork slow cooked on a tomato and paprika (brought back from Hungary by us!!) sauce with rice and then filo pastry cases with pears and chocolate and ice cream..I enjoyed them enjoying it and loved the smells!!Tomorrow I am taking my friend of 40 years out for a suprise birthday day out! We met on our first day at Grammar School so its a long friendship!! She is terrified as she doesn't know what we are doing and my daughter told her we are doing a bungie jump!! As if!! We are actually each having an hour in a new floatation tank in Truro, supposed to be mega relaxing, and then going somewhere nice for lunch, possibly St Mawes..so I am looking forward to that. Will tell you how the floatation tank goes!
day 35
10th oct 07
weigh in no 5 and another 4 pounds off so feeling very good about it all!!Our group had dropped to 4 tonight so we are a select bunch which is really nice. Four have dropped out, one is poorly and the other is on holiday (all inclusive in Spain, don't think I could cope with that yet!!)Work has calmed down a bit but have a busy day tomorrow, off to Penzance for 0930 meeting so need to get to bed and sleep...night blog...
weigh in no 5 and another 4 pounds off so feeling very good about it all!!Our group had dropped to 4 tonight so we are a select bunch which is really nice. Four have dropped out, one is poorly and the other is on holiday (all inclusive in Spain, don't think I could cope with that yet!!)Work has calmed down a bit but have a busy day tomorrow, off to Penzance for 0930 meeting so need to get to bed and sleep...night blog...
day 34
9th oct 07
Had a tough one today blog. Was very 'bunged up' yesterday so took some ducolax las night and oh boy, did it work!! Several times during the night and woke up very hot and shivery this morning. Had to work and had to drive to Helston so had several stops on the way and drank my water but felt awful. By lunchtime feeling a bit better and managed a bar but felt really hungry, wandered into tesco to get a few things and was wondering round staring longingly at chicken and things but resisited it all! Managed to finish a bit early so got hime, cooked tea and have vegged out in from of the TV tonight which was what I needed!Positive today was that my pa was booking our team christmas lunch and I said I would go but to explain to the restaurant that I would not be eating! Had several emails from people suggesting that I just have a 'salad or fish or something healthy' but have managed to fight them all off!! Will enjoy the team outing and socialising and will drive and drink my fizzy water!!Bring it on!
Had a tough one today blog. Was very 'bunged up' yesterday so took some ducolax las night and oh boy, did it work!! Several times during the night and woke up very hot and shivery this morning. Had to work and had to drive to Helston so had several stops on the way and drank my water but felt awful. By lunchtime feeling a bit better and managed a bar but felt really hungry, wandered into tesco to get a few things and was wondering round staring longingly at chicken and things but resisited it all! Managed to finish a bit early so got hime, cooked tea and have vegged out in from of the TV tonight which was what I needed!Positive today was that my pa was booking our team christmas lunch and I said I would go but to explain to the restaurant that I would not be eating! Had several emails from people suggesting that I just have a 'salad or fish or something healthy' but have managed to fight them all off!! Will enjoy the team outing and socialising and will drive and drink my fizzy water!!Bring it on!
day 33
8th oct 07
Monday again, been the length of Cornwall so tired of driving and having a funny sort of day..as the song goes..I don't like Mondays!! Had to do food shopping and stopped in a food hall which sells all local stuff and really struggled with pasties and fresh crab sandwiches..fought them off though! Came home and had three rugby playing teenage girls to feed prior to county practice and so made tuna, ham and cheese sandwiches and I could have eaten the lot. Fresh wholemeal bread just smelled soooooo good! Bread bread bread..it has to be my trigger food so I am really going to have to think about what i do with it in the future..sigh, I just love it so much!! In fact I love all carbohydrates..must get off this subject!! OK so I haven't had anything to eat, have still got my chocolate to go and I have been all alone this evening so if I had wanted to play games with my head I could have done, and I didn't!! Positives today-1-Have had 5 litres of water2-Have stuck to LL for 35 days with no cheating3-Have taken dog for 30 minute walk on the moor, in the drizzle!4-Starting to recognise my hot spots!!So it ain't all bad...bath and chocolate I think!xx
Monday again, been the length of Cornwall so tired of driving and having a funny sort of day..as the song goes..I don't like Mondays!! Had to do food shopping and stopped in a food hall which sells all local stuff and really struggled with pasties and fresh crab sandwiches..fought them off though! Came home and had three rugby playing teenage girls to feed prior to county practice and so made tuna, ham and cheese sandwiches and I could have eaten the lot. Fresh wholemeal bread just smelled soooooo good! Bread bread bread..it has to be my trigger food so I am really going to have to think about what i do with it in the future..sigh, I just love it so much!! In fact I love all carbohydrates..must get off this subject!! OK so I haven't had anything to eat, have still got my chocolate to go and I have been all alone this evening so if I had wanted to play games with my head I could have done, and I didn't!! Positives today-1-Have had 5 litres of water2-Have stuck to LL for 35 days with no cheating3-Have taken dog for 30 minute walk on the moor, in the drizzle!4-Starting to recognise my hot spots!!So it ain't all bad...bath and chocolate I think!xx
day 32
7th oct 07
Good week end draws to a close! Have spent the time re painting the back of the house so it is looking very white and bright at the moment..just the front to do now!Perks of little white cornish cottages I suppose. LL has just become a way of life and a lot of the things I was worried about it haven't happened..I still like the packs, the water is fine, I enjoy cooking for my family but haven't missed not eating, I feel in control and absolutely fine and the weight is coming off. It all still feels a bit surreal to be losing weight like this but hey, bring on the next few weeks and lets see where we go!!I can still become a rampaging harridan from time to time, but lets face it, that could just be me!!! Night blog, onwards to Monday morning!
Good week end draws to a close! Have spent the time re painting the back of the house so it is looking very white and bright at the moment..just the front to do now!Perks of little white cornish cottages I suppose. LL has just become a way of life and a lot of the things I was worried about it haven't happened..I still like the packs, the water is fine, I enjoy cooking for my family but haven't missed not eating, I feel in control and absolutely fine and the weight is coming off. It all still feels a bit surreal to be losing weight like this but hey, bring on the next few weeks and lets see where we go!!I can still become a rampaging harridan from time to time, but lets face it, that could just be me!!! Night blog, onwards to Monday morning!
day 31
6th oct 07
so another saturday night bites the dust!!..and we survivied it all again.Stuck to everything I should have and am sat here with my glass of water feeling virtuous.Had my warm bath and have got my cosy pjs on. House is freezing cos we have had to let the fires go out but can relight them tomorrow.Have been particularly crabby today..might be pmt or might be LLT, who knows!Have painted the back of the house today and also put a new gate up so the sheep won't be able to get in..oh and the rugby was brilliant! France and England in the world cups semis, who would have thought that..seems almost as improbable as me losing all this weight!!
so another saturday night bites the dust!!..and we survivied it all again.Stuck to everything I should have and am sat here with my glass of water feeling virtuous.Had my warm bath and have got my cosy pjs on. House is freezing cos we have had to let the fires go out but can relight them tomorrow.Have been particularly crabby today..might be pmt or might be LLT, who knows!Have painted the back of the house today and also put a new gate up so the sheep won't be able to get in..oh and the rugby was brilliant! France and England in the world cups semis, who would have thought that..seems almost as improbable as me losing all this weight!!
day 30
5th oct 07
Friday night again, can't believe where the weeks are going!Another OK day, and another buffet lunch survived!! ALso did an Asda shop, not on line, and found myself taking a real look at what I was getting for 'that lot'! We made burgers tonight and they had them with salad and wholemeal rolls, don't think we have had any white bread in the house since I started this!!and certainly no more frozen burgers or any of that junk if I can help it..best laid plans though!!Went for a swim and a sauna/jacussi which was a nice way to end the day and we have just had a lazy friday night..Ian opened a bottle of wine and I would have loved to have had a drink with him but didn't of course...! Impressed at my own will power but am also enjoying waking up feeling bright eyed and bushy tailed, especially on a weekend when I rarely did! Mind you am also waking up at 7am when I feel I deserve a lie in!Ah well, blog.. to bed!!
Friday night again, can't believe where the weeks are going!Another OK day, and another buffet lunch survived!! ALso did an Asda shop, not on line, and found myself taking a real look at what I was getting for 'that lot'! We made burgers tonight and they had them with salad and wholemeal rolls, don't think we have had any white bread in the house since I started this!!and certainly no more frozen burgers or any of that junk if I can help it..best laid plans though!!Went for a swim and a sauna/jacussi which was a nice way to end the day and we have just had a lazy friday night..Ian opened a bottle of wine and I would have loved to have had a drink with him but didn't of course...! Impressed at my own will power but am also enjoying waking up feeling bright eyed and bushy tailed, especially on a weekend when I rarely did! Mind you am also waking up at 7am when I feel I deserve a lie in!Ah well, blog.. to bed!!
day 29
4th oct 07
Chocolate time again blog! Have eaten more chocolate on this diet than I ever did before, I was one of those irritating people that leave choc bars in the fridge...but you should have seen me demolish a loaf of bread and butter!!Not a bad day, on a training event in Truro with lunch provided but needed to rush off to the 'bank' (!) so that was OK, and I had a lovely peppermint tea in Costa instead! Munched my new peanut bar thorough out the day and had my vanilla cafe latte when I got home with some chicken crisps, scrum! Realised that yesterday I only had 2 packs with all the exciting rushing about shopping and going to group, so need to watch that as I can't risk getting too tired, job is just too pressured at the moment.Well to watch question time I think and shout at the TV!! Oh and guess what, my team won the quiz on our training today and guess what the prize was??? Yep, chocolate!! Here we go again....!
Chocolate time again blog! Have eaten more chocolate on this diet than I ever did before, I was one of those irritating people that leave choc bars in the fridge...but you should have seen me demolish a loaf of bread and butter!!Not a bad day, on a training event in Truro with lunch provided but needed to rush off to the 'bank' (!) so that was OK, and I had a lovely peppermint tea in Costa instead! Munched my new peanut bar thorough out the day and had my vanilla cafe latte when I got home with some chicken crisps, scrum! Realised that yesterday I only had 2 packs with all the exciting rushing about shopping and going to group, so need to watch that as I can't risk getting too tired, job is just too pressured at the moment.Well to watch question time I think and shout at the TV!! Oh and guess what, my team won the quiz on our training today and guess what the prize was??? Yep, chocolate!! Here we go again....!
day 28
3rd Oct 07
Well blog, week 4 and another 6 pounds off!! How pleased am I right now! 2 stone 1 lb in 4 weeks...Enjoyed group tonight and those of us that are left seem to be bonding and very supportive of each other so thats great. There are 8 of us left of the original 12 so I guess thats probably par for the course and it feels like the right size of group.Earlier picked girls up from school and we went into Plymouth and met up with Ian as Debenhams had their cardholders event and he needed a new suit...whoever said women are fussy about clothes never shopped with a man for a suit!! Any way he got one and we got about £100 off and C bought a load of Pineapple stuff for dance, and I found a pair of pineapple fitted track bottoms, size 18, brown and pink.....and they fit like a dream!!My others I have been wearing for the gym are size 24, think its time they hit the charity shop now!! I left them to go to class and they decided to go to Pizza Hut as they haven't eaten out since I started LL! I walked back through town and M&S were also having a cardholder event so I popped in to buy some new, smaller!, Knickers. Walked in and had a glass of champagne put in my hand, so lost that..walked upstairs and was given a bag of continental chocolates, put them in my bag quickly and went round the corner to be greeted by an enormous chocolate fountain and a mountain of cookies!! Beat a hasty retreat and went to class early!!! Phew...too much temptation out there!!Well, must try to sleep as Its is a trip to Truro tomorrow....need to come down off this high....!Night blog, sweet dreams!
Well blog, week 4 and another 6 pounds off!! How pleased am I right now! 2 stone 1 lb in 4 weeks...Enjoyed group tonight and those of us that are left seem to be bonding and very supportive of each other so thats great. There are 8 of us left of the original 12 so I guess thats probably par for the course and it feels like the right size of group.Earlier picked girls up from school and we went into Plymouth and met up with Ian as Debenhams had their cardholders event and he needed a new suit...whoever said women are fussy about clothes never shopped with a man for a suit!! Any way he got one and we got about £100 off and C bought a load of Pineapple stuff for dance, and I found a pair of pineapple fitted track bottoms, size 18, brown and pink.....and they fit like a dream!!My others I have been wearing for the gym are size 24, think its time they hit the charity shop now!! I left them to go to class and they decided to go to Pizza Hut as they haven't eaten out since I started LL! I walked back through town and M&S were also having a cardholder event so I popped in to buy some new, smaller!, Knickers. Walked in and had a glass of champagne put in my hand, so lost that..walked upstairs and was given a bag of continental chocolates, put them in my bag quickly and went round the corner to be greeted by an enormous chocolate fountain and a mountain of cookies!! Beat a hasty retreat and went to class early!!! Phew...too much temptation out there!!Well, must try to sleep as Its is a trip to Truro tomorrow....need to come down off this high....!Night blog, sweet dreams!
day 27
2nd Oct 07
Hi feeling much better today, again I think I was just tired and i need to listen to my body when I feel like that and go to bed!! I am very good at staying up late, which in the past was my open a bottle of wine and a packet of kettle crips time!! Need to recognise that on 500 cals a day. working full time and doing everything that I do that I might just get tired from time to time!!Got loads of stuff done at work today, had an office day so stared at the PC and did loads of shredding but they are also good water days as i don't have to worry about being in the car, or in peoples houses!!Got an email from 'fifteen' at Watergate Bay today cos we have had a couple of lunches there and took Z there for her 16th last Nov and they cooked her a huge chocolate cake!! Food again, how will we celebrate her 17th?? Anyway enjoyed looking at the menu and thinking I could make healthy choices from it (surely Jamie would be pleased at that!!) but we do use food to celebrate and I need to think about that one for my families future...Christmas is a case in point and we have already decided not to do the food overload in the house, ie biscuits,chocs etc and the girls are happy that the chocs they get in their stockings will be their chocs for Christmas. I have decided that I will probably eat with them on Christmas day but keep it very low carb, so have some turkey and veggies, and I am really looking forward to that!Ah well thats a while off yet so back to my bath and hot chocolate!! Night night!
Hi feeling much better today, again I think I was just tired and i need to listen to my body when I feel like that and go to bed!! I am very good at staying up late, which in the past was my open a bottle of wine and a packet of kettle crips time!! Need to recognise that on 500 cals a day. working full time and doing everything that I do that I might just get tired from time to time!!Got loads of stuff done at work today, had an office day so stared at the PC and did loads of shredding but they are also good water days as i don't have to worry about being in the car, or in peoples houses!!Got an email from 'fifteen' at Watergate Bay today cos we have had a couple of lunches there and took Z there for her 16th last Nov and they cooked her a huge chocolate cake!! Food again, how will we celebrate her 17th?? Anyway enjoyed looking at the menu and thinking I could make healthy choices from it (surely Jamie would be pleased at that!!) but we do use food to celebrate and I need to think about that one for my families future...Christmas is a case in point and we have already decided not to do the food overload in the house, ie biscuits,chocs etc and the girls are happy that the chocs they get in their stockings will be their chocs for Christmas. I have decided that I will probably eat with them on Christmas day but keep it very low carb, so have some turkey and veggies, and I am really looking forward to that!Ah well thats a while off yet so back to my bath and hot chocolate!! Night night!
day 26
1st Oct 07
Hi blog, feeling very tired today and have found everything really heavy going for some reason.Drunk all my water, and eaten all my packs but not been with it at all really!! Ah well off to bed I think and try to catch up on some sleep!!
Hi blog, feeling very tired today and have found everything really heavy going for some reason.Drunk all my water, and eaten all my packs but not been with it at all really!! Ah well off to bed I think and try to catch up on some sleep!!
day 25
30th sept 07
well blog 25% of the way through, I can hardly believe that I have lasted this long without food or that it really doesn't seem like so big a deal! Of course it has its moments but they are definately emotional moments and not real hunger, a lot of the time it is my rebellious child stamping its foot because it wants to have a pasty, or chips or whatever it is it wants at the time. The adult me is looking forward to healthy choices, enjoying what I eat and the company I eat it in! And if I can learn to open a bottle of wine and not have to empty it that night that will be even better!Today girls had rugby trials for County so now have to wait to hear if they have got in, please either both of them or neither of them!I had my weekly trip to Plymouth and bought a pair of work trousers from M&S (not Evans!) as my others are HUGE but couldn't find jeans I like as yet, will struggle on with what I have to wear at home for the moment and just slob around! Visited MAC and tried out a new foundation which I had to buy! The girl in there is getting to know me quite well as new makeup is my treat to myself for each week I stick to the programme, but she doesn't know that! I have worn the same colours for years so am trying out lots of new ones as my confidence grows...25 years ago I was the slim, confident, 'punk' with the bright red spikey hair...and I know she is still in there somewhere!! Watch out world!!Ah well, to bed and to sleep...Monday tomorrow!
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well blog 25% of the way through, I can hardly believe that I have lasted this long without food or that it really doesn't seem like so big a deal! Of course it has its moments but they are definately emotional moments and not real hunger, a lot of the time it is my rebellious child stamping its foot because it wants to have a pasty, or chips or whatever it is it wants at the time. The adult me is looking forward to healthy choices, enjoying what I eat and the company I eat it in! And if I can learn to open a bottle of wine and not have to empty it that night that will be even better!Today girls had rugby trials for County so now have to wait to hear if they have got in, please either both of them or neither of them!I had my weekly trip to Plymouth and bought a pair of work trousers from M&S (not Evans!) as my others are HUGE but couldn't find jeans I like as yet, will struggle on with what I have to wear at home for the moment and just slob around! Visited MAC and tried out a new foundation which I had to buy! The girl in there is getting to know me quite well as new makeup is my treat to myself for each week I stick to the programme, but she doesn't know that! I have worn the same colours for years so am trying out lots of new ones as my confidence grows...25 years ago I was the slim, confident, 'punk' with the bright red spikey hair...and I know she is still in there somewhere!! Watch out world!!Ah well, to bed and to sleep...Monday tomorrow!
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day 24
29th sept 07
Evening blog! Just had a defining moment when I was in the bath!! Realised that when I sat up the water was all around me instead of wedged behind me, how cool is that!!Good day doing lots of house things like washing, cupboards, recycling etc. The house is full of clutter and I need to get rid of it in the same way I am decluttering my weight, probably going to take me as long as well! I do seem to keep things 'just in case' which all need to go, and that includes all my big clothes..charity shop for all of them unless they are e bayable.Ian and and C went surfing and came back looking wind blown and with tales of giant waves...yeah right! Z and I got the GI cook book out and made some banana cookies...didn't look like the recipe but apparently taste OK...and no I didn't have any myself!Can't believe that tomorrow I will be quarter way through this first phase of my new life and that I have not eaten convetional food in all that time, I am so proud of myself! Well chocolate time calls...night blog, love you!
Evening blog! Just had a defining moment when I was in the bath!! Realised that when I sat up the water was all around me instead of wedged behind me, how cool is that!!Good day doing lots of house things like washing, cupboards, recycling etc. The house is full of clutter and I need to get rid of it in the same way I am decluttering my weight, probably going to take me as long as well! I do seem to keep things 'just in case' which all need to go, and that includes all my big clothes..charity shop for all of them unless they are e bayable.Ian and and C went surfing and came back looking wind blown and with tales of giant waves...yeah right! Z and I got the GI cook book out and made some banana cookies...didn't look like the recipe but apparently taste OK...and no I didn't have any myself!Can't believe that tomorrow I will be quarter way through this first phase of my new life and that I have not eaten convetional food in all that time, I am so proud of myself! Well chocolate time calls...night blog, love you!
day 23
28th sept 07
Friday night again and for the 3rd week running have gone to the gym with C. Didn't want to cos it is so cold but am very glad that I did now! Walked my 11min mile, 5 mins on the cross trainer (how I hate that machine of torture) and 20 mins on the weights which I love. Had a cartilage op on my knee last Dec and it has been very weak since then but is feeling a lot stronger now and I feel the weights help, as does being 23 pounds lighter of course! Back home and have had a hot drink and onto my last litre of water....bleh!!Today was in Truro and very concious of bacon sandwich and pasty smells wafting around, both of which I know are trigger foods so I went into Monsoon instead and looked at little black dresses for Christmas...and somebody asked me if I wanted to try anything on!! A first for me in Monsoon where I feel the assistants are looking at me and going 'you must be joking love!!'I declined anyway as I am not sure I would have got anything on yet and anyway I want to be trying on a size 14/16 and not a size 22!I love the weekends, but I do find them hard as they have always revolved around food and drink and I still struggle with this as I love eating meals with my family sooo much! Ah well we are all looking at GI foods for the future so maybe I can have a GI cookie bake in with the girls and see what they think of them!well bath time to soak my aching muscles I think, sweet dreams blog.
Friday night again and for the 3rd week running have gone to the gym with C. Didn't want to cos it is so cold but am very glad that I did now! Walked my 11min mile, 5 mins on the cross trainer (how I hate that machine of torture) and 20 mins on the weights which I love. Had a cartilage op on my knee last Dec and it has been very weak since then but is feeling a lot stronger now and I feel the weights help, as does being 23 pounds lighter of course! Back home and have had a hot drink and onto my last litre of water....bleh!!Today was in Truro and very concious of bacon sandwich and pasty smells wafting around, both of which I know are trigger foods so I went into Monsoon instead and looked at little black dresses for Christmas...and somebody asked me if I wanted to try anything on!! A first for me in Monsoon where I feel the assistants are looking at me and going 'you must be joking love!!'I declined anyway as I am not sure I would have got anything on yet and anyway I want to be trying on a size 14/16 and not a size 22!I love the weekends, but I do find them hard as they have always revolved around food and drink and I still struggle with this as I love eating meals with my family sooo much! Ah well we are all looking at GI foods for the future so maybe I can have a GI cookie bake in with the girls and see what they think of them!well bath time to soak my aching muscles I think, sweet dreams blog.
day 22
27th sept 07
You should be really proud of me blog!! Had to drive to a meeting in Taunton today and at lunchtime the most fab buffet appeared ..all of my favourite things!! But i negotiated a mug of hot water and made my chicken soup up and sat outside in the sunshine till it had all gone away!They also put big bottles of water on all the tables so I grabbed one for myself and filled it with St Clements and downed that through the day. Had a couple of loo stops on the way back but thats just become the norm!Did some E asda shopping tonight and got everybody cooking their own food so am managing to break a bit of the nurturing parent...difficult though!Cosidering what next and reading up on low GI diets, trying to bring some ideas to play at home now so that they all get used to it before I hit maintenance, thats the theory anyway!Lots of positives today and no negatives that I can think of...it just goes on really!
You should be really proud of me blog!! Had to drive to a meeting in Taunton today and at lunchtime the most fab buffet appeared ..all of my favourite things!! But i negotiated a mug of hot water and made my chicken soup up and sat outside in the sunshine till it had all gone away!They also put big bottles of water on all the tables so I grabbed one for myself and filled it with St Clements and downed that through the day. Had a couple of loo stops on the way back but thats just become the norm!Did some E asda shopping tonight and got everybody cooking their own food so am managing to break a bit of the nurturing parent...difficult though!Cosidering what next and reading up on low GI diets, trying to bring some ideas to play at home now so that they all get used to it before I hit maintenance, thats the theory anyway!Lots of positives today and no negatives that I can think of...it just goes on really!
day 21
26th sept 07
Well blog, week 3 weigh in and I have lost another 5 pounds!! How amazing is that???I am one very happy bunny..that is 23pounds in 3 weeks, where else could I get results like that?The rest of the day was just the rest of the day..very happy, very tired and need to sleep..oh and I need to practice not being a nurturing parent quite so much, but more of that tomorrow!
Well blog, week 3 weigh in and I have lost another 5 pounds!! How amazing is that???I am one very happy bunny..that is 23pounds in 3 weeks, where else could I get results like that?The rest of the day was just the rest of the day..very happy, very tired and need to sleep..oh and I need to practice not being a nurturing parent quite so much, but more of that tomorrow!
day 20
25th sept 07
tuesday night and all is well! Woke up with a headache for some reason but it soon went and I have had a successful water day which helps! Really enjoying the fizzy water and St Clements at the moment so bought a pack of little bottles and have them in the boot so I can top up when I want to. Also really enjoying the peanut bars, break them up and nibble them when I am on the road...happy as Larry really!Family are used to me doing this now and the guilt factor for them seems to be going which I am glad about. I enjoy cooking for them and would hate them to be eating 'ready' meals because of me so I think we have struck the balance now!!Just had a long soak in the bath and so am going to flop in front of the TV for half an hour...realised that I never do this as i am normally too strung out to watch TV so yet another lesson for future life...it's OK to relax when you are tired!! Doh!!How long did it take me to learn that one!!
tuesday night and all is well! Woke up with a headache for some reason but it soon went and I have had a successful water day which helps! Really enjoying the fizzy water and St Clements at the moment so bought a pack of little bottles and have them in the boot so I can top up when I want to. Also really enjoying the peanut bars, break them up and nibble them when I am on the road...happy as Larry really!Family are used to me doing this now and the guilt factor for them seems to be going which I am glad about. I enjoy cooking for them and would hate them to be eating 'ready' meals because of me so I think we have struck the balance now!!Just had a long soak in the bath and so am going to flop in front of the TV for half an hour...realised that I never do this as i am normally too strung out to watch TV so yet another lesson for future life...it's OK to relax when you are tired!! Doh!!How long did it take me to learn that one!!
day 19
24th sept 07
Hi blog, not bad for a Monday! Didn't do anything very exciting, got up, made lunches, went to work and spent the day in one place for a change! Feeling very tired and a bit ratty, so everyone is staying out of my way...just need a decent nights sleep I think. Didn't sleep well last night due to the storms.Still another day where I have stuck to LL, tomorrow I will be a 5th of the way through!!
Hi blog, not bad for a Monday! Didn't do anything very exciting, got up, made lunches, went to work and spent the day in one place for a change! Feeling very tired and a bit ratty, so everyone is staying out of my way...just need a decent nights sleep I think. Didn't sleep well last night due to the storms.Still another day where I have stuck to LL, tomorrow I will be a 5th of the way through!!
day 18
23rd sept 07
Good evening blog, happy Sunday!OK sort of day and have caught up on washing, ironing etc and we have made the futon in Cs bedroom so she is happy. Have stuck to LL without a single lapse for 18 days and feel really chuffed at that!! Cooked thai curry and rice for them tonight and have made chilli for tomorrow and also a load of veg soup so the fridge is full of 'good' food and I don't need to think food for the next few days!Had long talks tonight with all of us about what I might do at the end of this and how we will need to adapt what we do and it was great to have that conversation with Ian and the girls and I think our eating will change for the better for all of us!Part of my problem is that I love food and I love cooking and I am definately a 'feeder', see it as 'caring' and I know this stems from my own childhood, being a post war baby boomer (my brothers both had ration books!) Northern culture and my mum also loving cooking.I can still love food and cooking, I just need to adapt things and stop giving everyone huge portions and expecting them to eat it all!!Ah well, onwards and hopefully downwards (weightwise that is!!)Forgot to add that i also went to the gym this afternoon and have git my mile on the treadmill down to 11.5 mins!!
Good evening blog, happy Sunday!OK sort of day and have caught up on washing, ironing etc and we have made the futon in Cs bedroom so she is happy. Have stuck to LL without a single lapse for 18 days and feel really chuffed at that!! Cooked thai curry and rice for them tonight and have made chilli for tomorrow and also a load of veg soup so the fridge is full of 'good' food and I don't need to think food for the next few days!Had long talks tonight with all of us about what I might do at the end of this and how we will need to adapt what we do and it was great to have that conversation with Ian and the girls and I think our eating will change for the better for all of us!Part of my problem is that I love food and I love cooking and I am definately a 'feeder', see it as 'caring' and I know this stems from my own childhood, being a post war baby boomer (my brothers both had ration books!) Northern culture and my mum also loving cooking.I can still love food and cooking, I just need to adapt things and stop giving everyone huge portions and expecting them to eat it all!!Ah well, onwards and hopefully downwards (weightwise that is!!)Forgot to add that i also went to the gym this afternoon and have git my mile on the treadmill down to 11.5 mins!!
day 17
22nd sept 07
Good day blog, been busy doing shopping things and went to my friends art exhibition opening so have spread myself around today!! Had a bit of a funny tum which I put down to not going to the loo for a few days and then a build up of psyllium husks!! Too much info but feel pounds lighter now!!Cooked for all again and found it OK, had my soup and loads of water and feel well in control. Find the weekends harder than the week days as my routine goes out of the window and I have time to fill and loads to do..and it all feels a bit odd, but am getting used to it.Woke up at 7am this morning and would love to have a lie in tomorrow as I am tired...we shall see.what happens, I have apile of books to read so maybe morning is the time to start them!!Well bath time and them chocolate time!yumm!!
Good day blog, been busy doing shopping things and went to my friends art exhibition opening so have spread myself around today!! Had a bit of a funny tum which I put down to not going to the loo for a few days and then a build up of psyllium husks!! Too much info but feel pounds lighter now!!Cooked for all again and found it OK, had my soup and loads of water and feel well in control. Find the weekends harder than the week days as my routine goes out of the window and I have time to fill and loads to do..and it all feels a bit odd, but am getting used to it.Woke up at 7am this morning and would love to have a lie in tomorrow as I am tired...we shall see.what happens, I have apile of books to read so maybe morning is the time to start them!!Well bath time and them chocolate time!yumm!!
day 16
21st sept 07
Hi Blog, feeling much better today and definately needed a good nights sleep last night!!Woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed and went off to work OK with my peanut crunch for breakfast! Had the afternoon off to take C to an out patients appt and then we went into Plymouth shopping. Had great fun wandering around Monsoon and River Island looking at what I might be wearing at Christmas, For the first time it feels like this might be a reality and that I could be in a Monsoon 'something' even if it is a size 16!!My clothes are suddenly looser and my tight jeans are looking decidedly saggy around the bum! Nobody at work has noticed yet but my family are commenting all the time...fantastic feeling!I also realised that when I am shopping in places like that I act as though I shouldn't really be there, even though I am Mrs confident, but today I didn't feel like that at all!!Went to the gym with C tonight and walked a mile in 12 minutes on the treadmill and then did a bit of crosstrainer (!) and some weights so feel very pleased with myself! What a change to Friday nights which were always 2 bottles of wine and a blow out! Wonder if this is the biggest life style change of all?? Will Friday night now be going to the gym night??Well bath time and then late Eastenders so night hight!!
Hi Blog, feeling much better today and definately needed a good nights sleep last night!!Woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed and went off to work OK with my peanut crunch for breakfast! Had the afternoon off to take C to an out patients appt and then we went into Plymouth shopping. Had great fun wandering around Monsoon and River Island looking at what I might be wearing at Christmas, For the first time it feels like this might be a reality and that I could be in a Monsoon 'something' even if it is a size 16!!My clothes are suddenly looser and my tight jeans are looking decidedly saggy around the bum! Nobody at work has noticed yet but my family are commenting all the time...fantastic feeling!I also realised that when I am shopping in places like that I act as though I shouldn't really be there, even though I am Mrs confident, but today I didn't feel like that at all!!Went to the gym with C tonight and walked a mile in 12 minutes on the treadmill and then did a bit of crosstrainer (!) and some weights so feel very pleased with myself! What a change to Friday nights which were always 2 bottles of wine and a blow out! Wonder if this is the biggest life style change of all?? Will Friday night now be going to the gym night??Well bath time and then late Eastenders so night hight!!
day 15
20th sept 07
Hi blog, strange day today as I am feeling quite disjointed somehow! Work has been busy and I have had loads of water, got to 4L by mid afternoon so stopped counting after that but it must be near 6L which is good. Had all my foodpacks and a couple of peppermint teas as well, walked the dog right across the moor, bought some hiking socks. cooked fajitas for all for tea and made egg mayo for sandwiches tomorrow ...all normal stuff, but I am not quite here!! Think I will go and have a Lush bath with my pressie from last night and then have an early night, I think I am just tired! Night night
Hi blog, strange day today as I am feeling quite disjointed somehow! Work has been busy and I have had loads of water, got to 4L by mid afternoon so stopped counting after that but it must be near 6L which is good. Had all my foodpacks and a couple of peppermint teas as well, walked the dog right across the moor, bought some hiking socks. cooked fajitas for all for tea and made egg mayo for sandwiches tomorrow ...all normal stuff, but I am not quite here!! Think I will go and have a Lush bath with my pressie from last night and then have an early night, I think I am just tired! Night night
day 14
19th sept 07
2nd weigh in today Blog and I have lost another 7 pounds!!! Thats 18pounds in 2 weeks, I find it difficult to believe but the scales cannot lie!! Today was a really tough day cos I was in meeting after meeting and all a bit pressured so I struggled with the water and arrived late in Plymouth feeling grumpy...but I am so happy now!.....I guess I will stick it for another week now!!!Oh and Ian bought me some Lush bath ballistics for my first stone, how sweet is that!!
2nd weigh in today Blog and I have lost another 7 pounds!!! Thats 18pounds in 2 weeks, I find it difficult to believe but the scales cannot lie!! Today was a really tough day cos I was in meeting after meeting and all a bit pressured so I struggled with the water and arrived late in Plymouth feeling grumpy...but I am so happy now!.....I guess I will stick it for another week now!!!Oh and Ian bought me some Lush bath ballistics for my first stone, how sweet is that!!
day 13
18th sept 07
Hi Blog, just a quickie to let you know the day was OK! Lecturing at the med school this afternoon so didn't drink enough water as I didn't want to keep going out but have caught up now!! Had to have 3 food packs this evening as well as I was all out of synche today, so feel like I have had a real blow out!!Really tired so to bed, to dream!! Talk after weigh in tomorrow...everything crossed please!
Hi Blog, just a quickie to let you know the day was OK! Lecturing at the med school this afternoon so didn't drink enough water as I didn't want to keep going out but have caught up now!! Had to have 3 food packs this evening as well as I was all out of synche today, so feel like I have had a real blow out!!Really tired so to bed, to dream!! Talk after weigh in tomorrow...everything crossed please!
day 12
17th sept 07
Hello blogmeister, another day in paradise!Back to work and seem to be more balanced when I am, probably less distractions around food, kids, friends etc so can be routine.Had my four 1xlitre bottles all filled in the fridge and ready to go this morning, having fallen out with OH for recycling them yesterday, how ridiculous! By 12 I had had 2.5 litres and as I was in the office just kept going steadily, with regular loo breaks! Felt good and in control and dealt with several things I had been putting off. Had toffee biscuits, chilli soup, mushroom soup and chocolate mud at various points of the day, nice not to have to eat at set times but when I want to...is this a lesson to learn?Suprised my self by turning down an invite from my best friend (of 40 years!) to go out and have a few drinks on Saturday night...I explained that I was booked in to go to the gym, and the silence was deafening!!Naturally she is worried I will 'overdo' it, but is as supportive as somebody who has never been more than a size 12 can be!!!Bless,,,,Decided I need a goal so we are looking at booking a holiday to the Carribean next April...what better place to show off a new wardrobe!!
Hello blogmeister, another day in paradise!Back to work and seem to be more balanced when I am, probably less distractions around food, kids, friends etc so can be routine.Had my four 1xlitre bottles all filled in the fridge and ready to go this morning, having fallen out with OH for recycling them yesterday, how ridiculous! By 12 I had had 2.5 litres and as I was in the office just kept going steadily, with regular loo breaks! Felt good and in control and dealt with several things I had been putting off. Had toffee biscuits, chilli soup, mushroom soup and chocolate mud at various points of the day, nice not to have to eat at set times but when I want to...is this a lesson to learn?Suprised my self by turning down an invite from my best friend (of 40 years!) to go out and have a few drinks on Saturday night...I explained that I was booked in to go to the gym, and the silence was deafening!!Naturally she is worried I will 'overdo' it, but is as supportive as somebody who has never been more than a size 12 can be!!!Bless,,,,Decided I need a goal so we are looking at booking a holiday to the Carribean next April...what better place to show off a new wardrobe!!
day 12
17 th sept 07
so blog, here we are 1 tenth of the way through foundation and still sticking to it! Never thought we would manage that did we??Ians birthday today and we bought him a new phone some very bright board shorts and a few other bits. Went surfing at Polzeath and it was glorious, i was a bit miserable first thing, mornings not good for me on this diet, but the sun was shining, the sky blue and the surf good! I just walked around in the sea which was bliss!They all had pasties for lunch while i sank an espresso and when we got back i had ashake while cooking Ian steak and wedges and salad for tea, the smell of burning in the kitchen wa definately one of burning matyr as I opened him a bottle of wine!! But I did it!!! Nothing has passed my lips in 10 days that shouldn't and whatever else happens I will always have done this!Picked Z up from work at the bistro and the cook has sent her away with a whole load of food for 'the family' so I don't have to cook! Bless her she knows I am on LL and is really supportive! So they are on sticky chicken, gnocchi, couscous and chilli noodles tomorrow...lucky things!We are painting the outside of the house tomorrow but I hope to get a swim in at some point as we have taken out this family membership, got to be good!Talk tomorrow Blog, night night!
so blog, here we are 1 tenth of the way through foundation and still sticking to it! Never thought we would manage that did we??Ians birthday today and we bought him a new phone some very bright board shorts and a few other bits. Went surfing at Polzeath and it was glorious, i was a bit miserable first thing, mornings not good for me on this diet, but the sun was shining, the sky blue and the surf good! I just walked around in the sea which was bliss!They all had pasties for lunch while i sank an espresso and when we got back i had ashake while cooking Ian steak and wedges and salad for tea, the smell of burning in the kitchen wa definately one of burning matyr as I opened him a bottle of wine!! But I did it!!! Nothing has passed my lips in 10 days that shouldn't and whatever else happens I will always have done this!Picked Z up from work at the bistro and the cook has sent her away with a whole load of food for 'the family' so I don't have to cook! Bless her she knows I am on LL and is really supportive! So they are on sticky chicken, gnocchi, couscous and chilli noodles tomorrow...lucky things!We are painting the outside of the house tomorrow but I hope to get a swim in at some point as we have taken out this family membership, got to be good!Talk tomorrow Blog, night night!
day 11
16th sept 07
Happy Sunday Blog! Good day although my mood is as unpredictable as it can be! I am very easily upset at the moment so everyone is walking around on egg shells around me which just makes me more irritable! Ah well...Went to Plymouth to collect C's futon and was relieved it fit in the car without a struggle. Planned badly again though and didn't take food with me so was stuck with water..must have drunk about 6 litres today and visited every loo I knowHeadache has totally gone now which is good and I seem to be in a routine for the moment! Totally not having either the banana or strawberry shakes or the veg soup but everything else goes fine!
Happy Sunday Blog! Good day although my mood is as unpredictable as it can be! I am very easily upset at the moment so everyone is walking around on egg shells around me which just makes me more irritable! Ah well...Went to Plymouth to collect C's futon and was relieved it fit in the car without a struggle. Planned badly again though and didn't take food with me so was stuck with water..must have drunk about 6 litres today and visited every loo I knowHeadache has totally gone now which is good and I seem to be in a routine for the moment! Totally not having either the banana or strawberry shakes or the veg soup but everything else goes fine!
day 9
14th sept 07
Hi Blog, late on parade tonight I am afraid! Been busy doing the chauffering!!Managed to have most of the day in the office which was good and was able to get through 5litres of water as the loo is right next to my office! Took a nut bar in for breakfast and put it in the microwave which turns out to be a lot stronger than mine so a lot of it burnt. There was smoke everywhere and we were rushing around like idiots opening windows and putting on fans so that the fire alarms didn't go off as they would have gone off in the hospital as well and about 5 fire engines would have shown up!! Nobody at work knows I am doing LL and what was strange was that nobody questioned why I had put a nut bar in the microwave!! (and I ate it all including the burnt bits!!)Tonight C dragged me out to the Gym for an hour when all I really wanted was to slob in front of the telly but I felt very smug for going and did 20 mins cardiovascular and 20 mins weights, now I ache!!Apart from England losing 30-0 to the Springboks at Rugby it has been a good day and I feel on top of the world!
Hi Blog, late on parade tonight I am afraid! Been busy doing the chauffering!!Managed to have most of the day in the office which was good and was able to get through 5litres of water as the loo is right next to my office! Took a nut bar in for breakfast and put it in the microwave which turns out to be a lot stronger than mine so a lot of it burnt. There was smoke everywhere and we were rushing around like idiots opening windows and putting on fans so that the fire alarms didn't go off as they would have gone off in the hospital as well and about 5 fire engines would have shown up!! Nobody at work knows I am doing LL and what was strange was that nobody questioned why I had put a nut bar in the microwave!! (and I ate it all including the burnt bits!!)Tonight C dragged me out to the Gym for an hour when all I really wanted was to slob in front of the telly but I felt very smug for going and did 20 mins cardiovascular and 20 mins weights, now I ache!!Apart from England losing 30-0 to the Springboks at Rugby it has been a good day and I feel on top of the world!
day 8
13th sept 07
well funny sort of roller coaster today Blog! Some of the day feeling very calm and serene and some of it feeling really weepy and sure that I can't do this for 12 weeks. Took the dog for a walk to the top of the moor and sat on a rock and had a long talk with my self and realised that only I am in control of this and actually it isn't too bad!! I miss food because it has been part of my life for so long, and it will be again, but just now I need a break from it to lose the weight I want to lose and to be more of the person I think I really am.Strange as I am not hungry at all now, the water is getting a lot better and it is probably just getting to a routine! Have been wearing my pedometer today and was shocked at how few steps I do during the day. I drive miles but that of course doesn't count!!Oh and apparently my breath smells! Thanks family, just made me feel a lot better!! (not)
well funny sort of roller coaster today Blog! Some of the day feeling very calm and serene and some of it feeling really weepy and sure that I can't do this for 12 weeks. Took the dog for a walk to the top of the moor and sat on a rock and had a long talk with my self and realised that only I am in control of this and actually it isn't too bad!! I miss food because it has been part of my life for so long, and it will be again, but just now I need a break from it to lose the weight I want to lose and to be more of the person I think I really am.Strange as I am not hungry at all now, the water is getting a lot better and it is probably just getting to a routine! Have been wearing my pedometer today and was shocked at how few steps I do during the day. I drive miles but that of course doesn't count!!Oh and apparently my breath smells! Thanks family, just made me feel a lot better!! (not)
day 7
12th sept 07
Well Blog, first weigh in and I have lost 11 pounds, can you believe it!! And I am well and very pinkly in ketosis!! Hurrah..!Day has been hard but I am definately over the wall now and looking forward to my goal set tonight of running the race for life next year...now why did I say that??!
Well Blog, first weigh in and I have lost 11 pounds, can you believe it!! And I am well and very pinkly in ketosis!! Hurrah..!Day has been hard but I am definately over the wall now and looking forward to my goal set tonight of running the race for life next year...now why did I say that??!
day 6
11th sept 07
Good evening blog. Today I have not had enough water, driven around Cornwall like a demented dervish, microwaved a nut bar (!), been dragged to the gym and am finally sat down trying to hydrate and calm down! Oh and the washing machine broke..greatI Anyway the nut bar was intriguing, and I enjoyed it, work has calmed down, the washing machine is mended..and I have signed up to the gym...omg what have I done! Watch this space...weigh in tomorrow, fingers crossed!
Good evening blog. Today I have not had enough water, driven around Cornwall like a demented dervish, microwaved a nut bar (!), been dragged to the gym and am finally sat down trying to hydrate and calm down! Oh and the washing machine broke..greatI Anyway the nut bar was intriguing, and I enjoyed it, work has calmed down, the washing machine is mended..and I have signed up to the gym...omg what have I done! Watch this space...weigh in tomorrow, fingers crossed!
day 5
10th sept 07
Hi Blog, feeling very tired so will keep this short I think.Felt OK today but probably the hardest so far as I have wanted to eat, not felt hungry, just wanted to eat! Have had a couple of bars, which I like, but this may have something to do with it. Still I enjoy the chewing so will carry on with them, Also went into ketosis tonight so my body should kick in properly now...Hurray!Busy work day, car to the gararge, washing machine stopped working, girls at Rugby, chicken and bacon for them for tea, a very strange choc muffin for me!! Enough for now I think..night night
Hi Blog, feeling very tired so will keep this short I think.Felt OK today but probably the hardest so far as I have wanted to eat, not felt hungry, just wanted to eat! Have had a couple of bars, which I like, but this may have something to do with it. Still I enjoy the chewing so will carry on with them, Also went into ketosis tonight so my body should kick in properly now...Hurray!Busy work day, car to the gararge, washing machine stopped working, girls at Rugby, chicken and bacon for them for tea, a very strange choc muffin for me!! Enough for now I think..night night
day 4
9th sept 07
Well Blog, you should be very pleased with me!! Went to my pop in today to swop the disgusting veg soup and horrible strawberry and got on the scales...and 9 pounds off in 4 days!! How fab is that?? After that I floated around Plymouth, went to buy some Mac make up and the girl offered to do my eyes so I ended up with fab smokey green eyes...and buying the lot!! My treat for me!!Stupidly forgot to take a pack with me so swigged lots of water and had a double espresso to keep me going. Came back and the girls were worried where I had been as I was later than normal! The boot changes foot!!Cooked stirfry for all and had my first bar, toffee, which I enjoyed.Feeling great!! Bring the week on!!
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Well Blog, you should be very pleased with me!! Went to my pop in today to swop the disgusting veg soup and horrible strawberry and got on the scales...and 9 pounds off in 4 days!! How fab is that?? After that I floated around Plymouth, went to buy some Mac make up and the girl offered to do my eyes so I ended up with fab smokey green eyes...and buying the lot!! My treat for me!!Stupidly forgot to take a pack with me so swigged lots of water and had a double espresso to keep me going. Came back and the girls were worried where I had been as I was later than normal! The boot changes foot!!Cooked stirfry for all and had my first bar, toffee, which I enjoyed.Feeling great!! Bring the week on!!
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day 3
Hi blog! Good day, decluttering loads of stuff and have also heroically cooked bacon sandwiches and spag bol for everybody, that was hard although I am not hungry, just want to eat!Anyway have thrown loads of my 'big' clothes that I don't like out as I won't be needing them any more, hows that for positive thinking!! Had a shake, soup, crisp day so far, going to have a chocolate after my bath...!Oh and I have drunk 5 litres of water, my best so far but I daren't go too far from the loo!!Got some ketostix but not in ketosis yet..maybe tomorrow!Night night blog!
8th Sept 07
8th Sept 07
day 2
Hi again my little blog, I think that you and I are going to become good friends!Woke up with a headache today but had loads of water, a caramel shake and two paracetemol and headed off in my car. Really heavy work day so had to keep going and by 10am felt great! Seemed to have a feeling of real positiveness about everything. Had to do loads of driving but the sun was out, the emmets have gone and all is well!!Bought a boot full of water yesterday so was drinking as I drove, now know evey loo between here and Penzance..I think I will write a book on the loos of Cornwall over the next 100days.Grabbed a mushroom soup at lunch time and drank it during a meeting.Went to Whittards and bought a big tall stripey mug and some of the flavoured coffees and peppermint tea. Realised as i wandered around Truro that I spend a lot of time food shopping and without that I am a bit lost....ah well soon be clothes shopping when I have lost a lot of weight! For now it seems to be 'drink shopping'!Came home tonight and cooked girls and Ian potatoe wedges. quorn sausages and veg...and me a strange chicken crisp which in a peverse way I quite enjoyed!Now settled down in front of the PC and Argentina have just beaten France at Rugby!! Having a chocolate shake and feel far too awake, usually this time on a Friday I would have had a huge meal and a bottle of shiraz...who needs it!!!Night night blog, love you!
day 1
Ok so here goes, day one of the rest of my life...Enjoyed class last night but had to go and eat KFC as my last fling, pathetic!Woke up positive today and have felt OK and quite strong.Had a raspberry shake for breakfast as a smoothie, lots of ice and water. I dont do breakfast normally so this is a struggle for me but I enjoyed it, Lunch had to wait till about 2pm as I was in meetings but I had and really enjoyed a thai chilli soup. Mixed OK in the cup and the odd lump was a bit of a change!At home had a vanilla with coffee which was good and finished the night with a veg soup which was horrible!So I have beaten some of the terrors of not liking anything and am finding my way around.My family are fantastic and being so suppportive..The water is a struggle, but I will cope with this...I hope!
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