day 40

15th oct 07
Hi blog, don't know what happened to yesterdays blog, I think that I couldn't get on the site and that just made me out of synch..sorry!Yesterday and today OK days, some intrusive food thinking due to cold weather and old habits I think! Made toad in the hole for all after their rugby match yesterday and really struggled not to pinch all the crispy bits left in the tin, over to the ever increasing dog again I am afraid..do they do LL for dogs once owners end foundation I wonder?!...I really do need my little layer for winter you know, my Grandma always told me I did!Ah well the layer is going...Today had to do a day of self defense/personal safety update for work which means I spent the day in track bottoms practising techniques on the mats! Felt hungry by the end of the day as I expended a lot of energy although had my 2 litre bottle with me which I kept topped up!For some reason I am having a lot of self doubt about my ability to do this, although still doing it, so probably some hormonal something going on, I don't know I don't think I will ever understand my own head!! What I do know is that there is no way that this 33 pounds is going back on again whatever happens! Well crap nights sleep last night so intend to try for a better one tonight!! Night all!!