day 54

29th Oct 07
Hi blog, in a much better space today, Ithink it is weekends that freak me out as I have too much time on my hands and constantly feel as though I should be doing something rather than recognising that I am knackered and letting it go! So the second half of foundation has a few new rules and objectives-1. I don't have to cook every night and if I say I am not cooking then one of the others has to step in. My part of that deal will be to make sure that there is loads of food in that they can cook that is good for them (not planning on losing control of my kitchen totally just yet!!)2. I will not tidy up before the cleaner comes in! If the house is a mess so be it!3. I will have at least an hour of me time at some point during the day, on my own if I want to! I will walk, read, go to the gym, lie in a bath..whatever I want to4. I will explore the meditation classes at the Buddhist Centre as I have always wanted to do this and feel it will help me to focus.5. I will celebrate each day that I complete and take it a day at a time again, I have got complacent, not drunk enough water and missed out on some of the packs, not to mention nibbling..this stops now!6. Each week I will reward myself in some way. Have booked reflexology this week, courtesy of my Nectar card, and another float next week. It is good to have something to look forward to.7...this is the biggy, I am going to de clutter my life and my house by Christmas. I feel hemmed in by the amount of things I am keeping that just need to go elsewhere. It is true that we keep things out of guilt or a fear of letting go, but I am no longer scared of letting go and this is truly a revelation to me!So dear blog, onwards to next year and a new me!!