day 82

28th november 2007
weigh in tonight and have lost another 3 pounds so that is fab!! 3 stone 13pounds to date and it is the end of foundation next week so I just have to lose that one pound!!! There were only 3 of us at the group tonight, somebody else has dropped out which seems such a shame at this point, and we were all a bit shocked as we have become very close as a group, and somebody else was on holiday. The three of us there tonight are all going into the same developers group and all have about the same left to lose so that will be cool! Will be strange moving to a Sunday as I have enjoyed my Wed night jaunt to Plymouth but I am sure I will find other things to do!Desperately need to get back to the gym as I haven't been for over a week, just felt too tired and having this hernia doesn't help any...Strange day at work as I suddenly have loads of compliments coming my way and some of them are a bit too in my face for my liking! Strange how people think it is OK to make really personal comments when you are a fat person getting thinner but when I was a fat person getting fatter no one thought to say 'you really should stop putting weight on or you will have a heart attack'!! Suddenly I am everybodys property...and lovely though it is I am not used to it!! :? Ah well, always end up staying up too late when I go out to WI as I am always a bit buzzy! Best get off to bed..have an extra teenage girl for the weekend so better build up my strenth!!

day 83

26th nov 07

Hi blog, couldn't get to you again last night so here is a resume..again!Yesterday did two lovely long walks with Ian and Oscar across the moor so felt pretty good and stuck to the foodpacks. Cooked chicken breasts and roast veg for everybody and told them to bin whatever they didn't eat! I cna't have food to pick at in the house at the moment which is really pathetic but just the way it is at the moment! Trying to sort it all out in my head but seem to be in a cheating myself sort of phase, almost like I have done so well that myself can't believe it or even allow it to happen...wierd things brains!!So, had a good day at work and went to a meeting this afternoon with my chief exec who I haven't seen for a few weeks. She asked me if i had been away as i looked so healthy and then said 'there is something really different about you'..!! I explained that I had lost a lot of weight and she was really nice and said how fantastic I looked and what was my secret etc etc! Felt really pleased because we don't have that sort of relationship really !lol Tonight came home and sorted the fires out, got coal, carried logs and took Oscar for a walk on to the edge of the moor..walked up one of the paths but it was really misty and got a bit spooked in the dark so bought him home!! There are a couple of hounds wandering around from a hunt last week, they always seem to lose a couple, and I am a bit wary of them!!Big flipping dogs!Sorry...not a 'hunt' is it...they exercise their dogs!! Ha Ha! ~:( Sorry won't be political....Zia and Ian were at rugby training at Newquay so got back starving and fed them sausages and french bread...all left over sausages donated to Oscar! He is definately going to need LL for dogs by the time I finish this!!Have just had a hot bath and am sitting down with my last pack, vanilla and coffee. Got to go and do a self defense course for work in the morning which is always fun, so can dress down instead of up! Have also agreed to go to the work dinner dance with a group of women from my building, I don't usually go to things like that but hey..new dress?? Actually I don't possess a dress so that will be fun!! Don't think I will be a lot lighter by the 17th Dec so need to try a few on this weekend, or I might just go black trousers and a glitzy top, and my killer heels!!Well bedtime I think....

day 80

24th nov 07
Blimey who would have thought I would get to 80 days!!? ME..Mrs yo yo/I am too busy to think about going on a diet!! Just proves how good this is, and even though I have been dragged kicking and screaming at times, with my rebellious child drumming her heels on the floor, I am here three and a half stone lighter!! ..and STILL here and STILL wanting to carry on with it! So thanks to all of those wonderful people on here who have kept me going, and particularly Mollyjak who gives me a sharp slap across the back of the legs occassionally and is my best support, I suspect I will be here for another 80 days and so sail around the world twice!! :D Today has been hard in some ways as I have really wanted to eat and have felt really hungry. although of course it is only emotional hunger, but I have still struggled with it...but not given in!! Fanily had chinese tomight and I had to leave them to it whereas I can normally sit with them and it not bother me...wandered into the kitchen afterwards and Ian was just washing up, and had put all the leftovers in the bin, or in the dog, so obviously picked up on my mood and likely picking!! !shy Talking of the dog, somebody has decided to have an hour long firework display tomight, just across the road from us, so my jack russell is a quivering heap in his bed in the kitchen..bless hime, he hates it and we thought it was over for the year!!It was really cold and wet today, icy first thing when Z went off on her driving lesson, so I haven't managed any walking yet...but I have put my first item for sale on ebay!! A lot easier than I thought so I shall do some more tomorrow and then wait and see what happens! : Well it is late so I think I need to get some sleep and applaud another good day! Night blog!!

day 79

23rd Nov 2007
so glad it is the weekend! Feeling good today and sticking to everything OK, working my way through the water at a rate of knots! Z's 17th birthday today and i think she has had a good one! Went into town to buy a new tank for her corn snake and it is really nice and snake seems really happy...well as far as you can tell with a snake! Currently hanging from a branch basking under a lamp, not a bad life! Z has got her first driving lesson tomorrow at 9am...should be fun!! :@ need to try and keep really on top of LL this weekend so will be looking for some support on here. Not got a lot planned, which is nice, so going to try to get to the gym a couple of times and also sell some of my 'good' big clothes on ebay. Never sold on ebay before...!If the weather stays nice I want to take the dog out for a good walk as well, a three miler if I am up to it! Got a route planned out and armed with my pedometer and a bottle of water should be nice!Well latte time before bed so night blog!!

day 78

22nd nov 07
well have to do an update as I couldnt get online for the last couple of nights!The hernia seems to have calmed down and is just a bit uncomfortable, went for bloods this morning so have a nice bruise on my arm now!Had weigh in last night and stayed the same which was OK cos of the picking and not feeling well, and I already feel like I have lost weight today as I have stuck to it all and am re motivated!The corn snake is a bit jittery and hiding at the moment but managed to eat this afternoon...don't ask.... !ill Had z's gcse presentation tonight which was nice and she got 2 awards one for English Lit and one for PE which makes me very proud! It is her 17th birthday tomorrow and her first driving lesson on Saturday, where has the time gone! One of her best friends came up to me at the awards tonight and said 'mrs B where have you all gone, you look really good!' which I take as the ultimate compliment from a 17 year old!Work busy but it will soon be the week end and I am NOT working this one so looking forward to a relaxing time..I live in hope! Z wants me to make fajitas for her birthday tea tomorrow so we don't go out for a meal and I am not tempted to cheat! Bless her!

day 76

nov 20th 07
Just a quickie blog! Had a busy day and got on top of lots of paperwork which was great and I feel a lot better for it! Had a board meeting tonight which went on a bit and so have just got in and having my caffe latte!! Yumm...had a good food day but a bit short on water so am topping up as we speak...Z has just got a corn snake so her bedroom seems to have turned into a vivarium...just as long as I don't have to feed it!! !dodge Weigh in tomorrow so fingers crossed, as ever I don't feel that I have lost and actually with my tum problem I haven't done any exercise at all so won't worry if I haven't cos I have had some really good losses and if I don't lose this week then I will next! :D

day 75

19th nov 07
well blog three quarters of the way through foundation, never thought i would make this in a million years!Not a fabulous day today really. Woke up and had my lie in after working yesterday which was nice but I still was feeling tender in my tummy and a bit sick. Went into work for a few hours and felt awful, really sick and pains in my back and I could feel a lump in my tum so I got an appt at the GP for 5pm. Really lucky cos although it was an emergency appt I saw my doc who supported me in LL so didn't have to go through the whole saga. Was really worried in the waiting room as others were being called in to diff doctors cos I thought 'I know he/she will tell me to stop/have a break/tell me off'etc etc....adapted child coming through loud and clear!! I had my record book and foodpacks with me to explain but didn't need them! It was the first time Dr S had seen me since I started LL and although he didn't make a fuss he was impressed at what I had lost. Had a look at me and decided thatI may have a hernia so is sending me for blood tests and an ultra sound to see what is going on. Reckons that I may have had it for some time and because I have lost so much weight it has become more obvious rather than hiding in my jelly belly!! He also said that sometimes when you lose a lot of weight you can get pockets of fat that hang around in your gut...lovely thought!!So feel better knowing what it might be as I had run through every possibility in my head and over dramatised it all as ever! B) C had a parents review for two of her subjects and got positive feedback which was nice to hear and Z is becoming the proud owner of a corn snake tomorrow which doesn't fill me with delight as I know who will end up feeding it!! (and they don't eat vegetarian!!)..actually have put my foot down on that one and I know she will be a responsible snake owner!!Managed to stick to the packs today and forced the water down as it did actually stop me feeling worse, seem to have gone back on chocolate at night which is good as I need to cut down the coffee to one a dayI think.Well going to take my sore tum to bed with a HWB I think and see what tomorrow brings!

day 71

15th nov 07
hi Blog! First of all thanks to everybody who comments on the blogs, I really look forward to reading the comments it helps me to feel inspired!!
Having said that its been a day from hell..OH in a not happy mood due to work stuff and for some reason I end up shouldering most of that and wandering round at home trying to make it all right again...and feeling very stressed!! We discussed a bit of this last night at class and about the 'superwoman' messages that feminism gave us in the 70s that we still carry around. So I have to work full time in a difficult job, and look after the children, and the house, and cook and wash and iron etc etc!! Stepford wives is nothing on it!Anyway it is all a bit tense at the moment..so I did my superwoman and made the Christmas cake (now cooling..), cooked fajitas for tea, put the washing in and then threw a temper tantrum....so I didn't do the washing up, the girls did!! ..and I let emotional hunger get to me and ate a piece of chicken that was sitting in the fridge..bugger!
I knew what i was doing, and I did just eat the chicken breast, no skin and no carbs to go with it so at least there was some damage limitation but it was a real 'now look what you made me do' moment!! Never mind, done now and I feel really sick so it serves me right really!! This is NOT how to cope with stress!!
missed my tea time foodpack so am just having a vanilla latte and then will try to get some sleep. Took the dog out a while ago and it was really beautiful on the moor, all the stars were out and it was quite frosty...nice to get a night time walk, must do it more often!
funny day, hope tomorrow is a bit better, but I doubt it somehow! will try to deal with it a bit better though, need to do a thought record I think!!
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day 74

18th nov 07
Had quite a busy day as I was working today to catch up with some of my team. Had to go to Truro early so managed a wander around M&S and got a really nice top that I have been after for a while. It is only a work one but I got an18 and it fits really well! Chuffed!!
Still got this tender tummy and feel a bit sick so think I may be bunged up (!) or have a tummy bug, will see how it goes this week. Don't have a temp so have taken the infamous dulcolax and we will see how that goes.....
Have managed to stop picking today and I am sure that will help the tummy as I am giving it all the wrong messages by eating bits and then stopping! So have had 3 vanillas today with coffee and a cranberry bar, I loooove them! Have gone off all the others at the moment...
Have decided not to buy cooked chicken or ham as they seem to be my weakness and if they are there in the fridge then I seem to pick at them! I would not have said pre LL that they would be a problem, more likely bread, pasta etc but they are not bothering me at all! Perhaps I know in my head that proteins are pref to carbs and so the crooked thinking tells me that it is OK to eat them!mmmm, get back in the box those thoughts and stay there until I can deal with you!
Z had a rugby match in Taunton today and they drew so happy with that! Yet more horrid rugby kit to wash! C has appt for her MRI scan on 6th dec at 6pm so at least we can see what is going on with her knee injury and get it sorted before next spring! Poor love!
Invented a very yummy looking butternut squash curry for their tea which they had with naan bread, one to save for when I am eating again!!
Well lie in tomorrow to make up for working today, bliss..paper and womans hour for me, and no interruptions!!

day 73

17th Nov 07
Bit of a strange day again today and have been picking at chicken again!!Really good all day, went shopping to Plymouth which is quite hard as C is still on crutches and it was really busy so she was all stressed out! People can be so rude, we waited ages for an elevator in the car park cos she can't do the steps and all these charming older ladies just pushed in front of her!! and I am sure they complain about the younger generation!! :D Met up with Ian and Z and we had spudulike lunch, and I had my fizzy water and st clements..Z reckons I will get arrested one of these days as I carry it around in a little box and tip it into my water, very suspect!!Stopped at waitrose and we did the shopping for the week, lovely bread in waitrose!! Dammit!!Also bought some cooked chicken for lunches next week, all in my plan of not being tied to the kitchen, but have eaten most of it...just pick, pick pick! Really cross with myself cos I have done this a few times now..only protein and only small amounts, but I don't know why I am being so stupid... ~:( I am not particularly hungry, or deprived but it is just because it is there..!Well it isn't a major disaster, and it has been a horrid week, so I will chalk it down to experience and get back on the road tomorrow! May consider Reds plan of having the odd night off so that it is planned and therefore doesn't feel quite so 'bad' which of course is what I am trying to avoid! Doh, the games we play with ourselves!!I have also got a really tender tummy which is making me feel not brilliant, keeping on drinking the water and have a docs appt a week on Monday but hopefully it will have gone by then and is just a tummy bug..Got to work tomorrow so better have some sleep! Night blog, thanks for listening!

day 72

16th nov 07
well all seems a little calmer in the house today! OH didn't sleep last night and was wandering around sending e mails at 5am but then crashed for the morning and a lot happier when he woke up. I was working at home today so spent the day on the lap top and got lots done so felt like a productive day, although still have too much to fit in so am working Sunday then having Mon am off which I am looking forward to! Shopping in Plymouth tomorrow..H&M here we come!!Have enjoyed children in need tonight, always puts things into perspective, and we are watching the buzzcocks in a moment which I will enjoy!LL wise not done bad today, although have had 2 bars so will be one down on another day but can live with that, needed it today! Done my water and am on litre no 5, lots of fizzy today so am very gassy!! !dodge Looking for a dress for a posh do in Dec so like others on here am scouring the charity shops!! Don't want to spend a lot as I am still a long way off my target so will keep looking! Took three bags of stuff to a charity shop in town this afternoon and they were thrilled! All good stuff that if I had the time I could sell on e bay..but I haven't although feel a lot better having got rid of that little lot!!

day 70

14th nov 07
weigh in tonight and have lost another 5pounds!! Thats 51 pounds altogether and i am soooo pleased!! This diet is brilliant and I cannot praise it enough..my LLC is great and our classes are great fun, and incredibly hard work! An emotional roller coaster but I am learning more about how i tick everyday!!Rest of the day has been really busy but pales into insignificance after class! So onwards towards developers in 3 weeks, there are four of us from the group going on togehter so that will be good as we have got quite close as a group....Night blog, thanks for always being there!!

day 69

13th nov 07
well somebody save me from moody teenagers!! Have had a bucket full tonight, but didn't resort to eating toast and marmite or drinking a bottle of wine, so I must have learnt something!Have spent the evening helping to make choc truffles for her best friends b/day tomorrow, strange how food is in everything we do isn't it!!Soooo we have a fridge full of truffles talking to me in dulcit tones which I will ignore until they disappear off on the school bus tomorrow morning!!Been at a conference in Truro today and blow me they had curry and rice/nan or lasagne and garlic bread for lunch, not the expected buffet! So I went for a walk for 40 mins which was quite nice. I also had a 2L bottle of water with me which was all I drank all day so happy with that, coffee is always foul at these things anyway!Felt like a long drive back as it was really dark and wet and I was paged half way back so had to sit in a layby on my mobile and it was actually sleeting on my windscreen, winter is really here!Strange sort of day, feeling a bit out of sorts with it all..and weigh in tomorrow and I am not convinced I have lost anything.....we shall see!!Night Blog!

day 68

12th nov 07
Hi blog, well back to work after a good weekend. Been quite busy and have also decided to make a christmas cake! Deciding between Delias recipe or Nigella and think i will go with Nigella as there is a lot more fruit in it! Haven't made a Christmas cake for years but as we have lost both our mums in recent years there is nobody left to make it so its over to me! Feel quite excited about it actually and the girls are very up for helping so hopefully that is something else they can learn!! Doesn't worry me as I am not a cake eater, now if it had been a sausage roll or bacon and egg pie that might have been a different matter!So, have stuck to the meals today but am getting pretty bored with them and really only enjoying vanilla and the bars, and fizzy water with st clements in. I feel as though I am on a downward stretch to 100 days and I really need to get my head around what happens next as I still have 6 stone to lose! Will talk to my LLC on wed when I weigh in and see what she can do to kick me up the bum! Having said that I have stuck to this for 67 days more than I expected to and nobody can take that away from me!So to bed and off to Truro tomorrow, another buffet lunch to deal with!! Getting good at walking round with a plate with half a sanwich on which I can leave somewhere at the end of the meal!! Much easier than a sit down meal!! :D

day 67

11th Nov 07
Sunday again blog, and rememberance Sunday at that. Have watched a lot of emotive stuff on TV as I always do..my mum and dad both served in the airforce in ww2 and actually met at an airbase in somerset so it means a lot to our family. My dad is 84 now and never misses a trick!LL wise not a bad day and have stuck to everything. Had a board meeting this morning first thing and they had got organic peppermint tea in for me as I don't drink coffee!! So that was a good start to the day..love my pmint tea in the morning!Feeling quite tired again so haven't done too much apart from walk the dog..oh and keep 2 log fires going, cook dinner, washing and ironing and clean the bathroom! so actually I have done quite a lot! !lol Feeling quite sleepy so will keep this short..night blog!xxxx

day 66

10th Nov 07
...well i just wrote a huge blog, went to post it and it all vanished..aaagghhh!!Can't do it all again so here is a precis...today I have been chauffeur and farm shopper, visited friends and watched making of Christmas cakes! Kids are toasting marshmallows and the smell is really sickly, waiting for them to drop them on the rug...just waiting... :D So good day, busy, happy..love the weekend!¬!!

day 65

9th Nov 07
Thank heavens it is Friday, feeling washed out and becoming a pathological food sniffer at the moment!! Dragged myself to the gym tonight and lasted about 40 mins, first time since 10k and I still ache but feel better for having gone! Cooked a big stew to keep the troops happy and drove C to a sleepover at her friends...don't know why they are called that as they never seem to sleep when they are here! Last one I caught them all playing Twister at about 3am! Wish I had some 14 year old energy!!Mind you it seems to be fuelled on chocolate and toast so maybe not!Had a good day food wise and managed my water OK. Couple of people commented on my changing shape which was nice! We are having a glrls night out to a local dinner dance just before Christmas to test out the new dresses and it seems that I am going to pay the full whack to push my food around my plate, ah well never mind!! What a burning martyr I can be that night!!Well off to sniff some more food before I go to bed! Nice bit of cheese I think!!

day 64

8th Nov 07
Blimey blog, what a long day! Fortunately had a bit of a late start and worked from home first thing then picked Z up from School and dropped her home. Had a good morning and feeling very positive...TOTM started for first time since LL which would explain the toffee craving yesterday, have never learned to spot the signs after all this time! Would also explain the backache and tiredness that I put down solely to the 10k!Stuck to all my foodplans today and have done OK with water, need to try an extra litre really. will do tomorrow. Had a big meet at HQ this afternoon and then home, find tea for kids and off to board meeting and AGM at theatre company I belong to and sit on the board. Things a bit heated at the meeting and it went on from 1830 to after 10pm, and we are meeting again on Sunday morning so feel like a wet dishcloth! Came home and looked for the toffee but fortunately somebody had eaten it! I will not have that satans food in my house again, ever!!So not a bad day and am back in ketosis, bought some strips from the chemist which they re;uctantly sold me...'has my doctor said that I need them?'..doh, I am 51 years old, [u]I [/u]have said that I need them, and I promise to treat them responsibly and not use too many at once!! For goodness sake!

day 62

7th Nov 07
weigh in no 9 and another 3 pounds off! Amazing!!Feeling tired cos it is quite a haul to plymouth and back and I am still tired from sunday. Not got the resources to re charge as quickly.Good class tonight and we did lots about game playing and we all shared loads of stuff, I found it quite tough as a lot of it focused on me and I tend to bounce it off when that happens normally, but I couldn't do that in this situation!! Not good for the control freak in me!Determined to have a really good week this week with no picking, all my packs and the full 4 litres a day..I owe it to myself in the last 4 weeks of foundation!!

day 62

6th Nov07
color=#cc33cc]Hi blog! Boy I am still sooooo stiff from the 10k, I am obviously a lot less fit than i thought I was! Walking around this morning like i had just ridden across the desert on horseback!!Meetings in Newquay and Truro today so a bit of driving, but a nice sunny day for it all, and had half an hor to kill in Truro so bought Birthday pressies for my niece in accessorize which always cheers me up! Lovely wooly gloves and patterned tights, hope they meet with the 15 year old approval but I think they will! She has 2 brothers, as I did, so I know she likes a few girly things around her!After work booked in for another 'float', thought it would help the aching muscles and it was fabulous the second time around! I knew what I was doing so had no probs with closing the lid etv and although my mind was really racing for the first 10 mins I then fell asleep and must have slept for 30 mins. Woke feeling absolutely brill, very calm, skin all soft and am now feeling just normally tired!! I bet I sleep well tonight, I know I did last time!So got home and we cracked all last nights washing up from the bonfire party, including oven trays (yeuch) and turned the left over spuds into stuffed cheesy potatoes for their tea.Ian and Z went to the gym and I stood in the kitchen and ate 3 pieces of Thorntons treacle toffee!! Now why the hell did I do that??? I have no idea other than 'it was there' and 'it's not fair that I can't have any'.....well how pathetic can a grown woman get?!So i've dusted my self down, left the toffee where it is cos realitically I have to deal with food having teenengers in the house, accepted that I did what I did, had a bath, painted my nails and am on my 2nd litre of water in an attempt to dilute the damage!We live and learn and I now know that toffee hides in dark places and attacks while your mind is engaged elsewhere! Ah well with any other diet I would have given up and finished off all the rest of the leftovers, but I ain't done that!! :) So to tomorrow and weigh in and if I haven't done as well as I should, it's my own fault!! [color=#ff00cc][/color] [/color]

day 61

5th Nov 07

very quick! Have just had a bonfire party and had about 18 people in who I fed sausages, jacket spuds, baguettes, red wine etc..my favourite sort of food!! Didn't pick but am left with a whole pile of ginger bread and carrot cake that other people bought! aaagghh! Packed lunches for the rest of them tomorrow I think!It was a good night and enjoyed by every body from the tots to the non tots and the girls made a guy which was fun! OH did his pyrotechnic bit and was like a small boy with his fireworks! Bless..Oscar listened to chill FM so wasnt too traumatised and our field is a fair way from the house..Really tired and achy after the walk yesterday though so to bed I think!

day 60

4th Nov 07
Well blog, today was the day of the 10k stride at Lanhydrock and Oscar and I managed to finish so we were very pleased with ourselves! It was very hard going though and I think being on 500 calories a day certainly impacts on my stamina as I felt very weary! My feet ache like anything now, but I feel pretty buzzy as well.It was a beautiful walk and the weather was good, went all through the woods and along the riverbank but it took us nearly 3 hours and we were definately bringing up the rear! Well organised and loads of loos though and plenty of water on route, not that I drank too much..if you know what I mean!Put all my blogs on my blogger and will put some photos on their as well and post the link.Thanks to all who supported me, I raised about £150 for cancer research...and I wore my step counter and did 8.83 miles, 18674 steps and burned 1340 cals, so I had better have a good weightloss this week!!Well to top up the water and then to bed I think....

day 59

3rd Nov 07
Quick one tonight blog! Just been to a party at the village hall which was good fun and quite a lot like something out of the Vicar of Dibley!!Enjoyed people watching and the girls faces as they watched the adults on the dance floor! Took 2 bottles of fizzy water with me and sank them and Ian took a decent bottle of wine with him so he had a mellow night, which he needed as work has been tough this week!Went shopping in Liskeard this morning with Z and we stopped for a peppermint tea and a choc steamer for her, got back to the car and it had a ticket on it!10 mins over, and £40 lighter...was really cross! Also tried to get a pair of jeans and couldn't, they fit my legs and bum, but my tummy is huge still...maybe I will look at a tummy tuck when all this is over!Any way I have had another good food day and avoided all the home made quiches and pasta salads at the party so pretty chuffed with myself! And I wore the new shoes!!!

well the big walk tomorrow so had better get to sleep....night blog ;)

day 58

2nd Nov 07

well Friday again, where has the week gone? Good day and busy again, Had to go to Truro and Redruth so dropped the girls off in Truro first thing and then met them for lunch. Went to my favourite place which is a Wholefood Cafe called Fodders (next to the market if you are ever there!) and they tucked into huge jacket spuds while I had a proper pot of peppermint tea which was very nice! Also crunched my cranberry bar and then left them again enjoying the shops. Picked them up after work at M&S and spent a happy half hour trying on jackets..fit into a size 18 Per Una jacket which as Z said it was no good getting as it would be too big in a couple of weeks!! I have never fit into ANYTHING in per una and they have some lovely stuff in there so felt really chuffed! Roll on size 14....any way as I had hit 3 stone this week I had to buy myself some killer dress sandles to wear with the little black dress that i have yet to buy for Christmas, they are black slingbacks with 4 inch heels and lots of bling on the front and I love them, have been wearing them with my PJs all night!! Can't remember the last time I felt confident enough to wear heels, and as for slingbacks, mut have been 20 years ago!! :D :D We bought salmon and veg for tea for them and hit the road home and have had a relaxing eveing in front of the fire, going through a cold phase again so have just had a hot bath and feeling quite chilled.The girls have bought Oscar a cancer research tee shirt for his walk with me on sunday, he doesn't seem keen and I think pink is not his colour, but he does look sweet!! Will try to post a pic on my face book and copy a link!So have managed another day and tomorrow is the start of the mess de cluttering, and then a party in the evening..and a chance to wear the new sandles!!Bet I am barefoot within 20 miutes of getting there!!

day 58

2nd Nov 07
well Friday again, where has the week gone? Good day and busy again, Had to go to Truro and Redruth so dropped the girls off in Truro first thing and then met them for lunch. Went to my favourite place which is a Wholefood Cafe called Fodders (next to the market if you are ever there!) and they tucked into huge jacket spuds while I had a proper pot of peppermint tea which was very nice! Also crunched my cranberry bar and then left them again enjoying the shops. Picked them up after work at M&S and spent a happy half hour trying on jackets..fit into a size 18 Per Una jacket which as Z said it was no good getting as it would be too big in a couple of weeks!! I have never fit into ANYTHING in per una and they have some lovely stuff in there so felt really chuffed! Roll on size 14....any way as I had hit 3 stone this week I had to buy myself some killer dress sandles to wear with the little black dress that i have yet to buy for Christmas, they are black slingbacks with 4 inch heels and lots of bling on the front and I love them, have been wearing them with my PJs all night!! Can't remember the last time I felt confident enough to wear heels, and as for slingbacks, mut have been 20 years ago!! :D :D We bought salmon and veg for tea for them and hit the road home and have had a relaxing eveing in front of the fire, going through a cold phase again so have just had a hot bath and feeling quite chilled.The girls have bought Oscar a cancer research tee shirt for his walk with me on sunday, he doesn't seem keen and I think pink is not his colour, but he does look sweet!! Will try to post a pic on my face book and copy a link!So have managed another day and tomorrow is the start of the mess de cluttering, and then a party in the evening..and a chance to wear the new sandles!!Bet I am barefoot within 20 miutes of getting there!!

day 57

1st Nov 07
Hi again blog! Another perfect day, stuck to it all and have drunk all my water and just generally feeling more positive about everything! Work is busy and that helps and I was able to be in the office at meal times which helps as I can make drinkable soup! Not wanted to pick at all today so hopefully that will nail that for the moment. Also cooked tea for family tonight which i haven't done for a few days and i was back to enjoying the cooking and we enjoyed sitting down together and talking which I have missed. Aware that they are eating much smaller amounts of food as I am not doing my great big casseroles etc and just cooking what will get eaten, this will have to be the way forward as well! Interestingly all have lost some weight and all three are watching what they eat, in a very positive way. Both girls are incredibly supportive of me doing this and I believe are realising that to avoid being in a similar position when they get older that they need to focus now and think about what they put in their bodies...and I so hope that they do learn from me!! OH is great and learning to cook, bless him! He did absently mindedly say to me 'lets take a day off and go to 'Fifteen' for lunch', my favourite restaurant at Watergate Bay, so I had to beat him with the newspaper!! Jamie will just have to live without our custom for the moment!Well its the big 10k on Sunday and the weather forecast is good so fingers crossed that it is OK and that oscar and I make it in one piece!!